Devoting My Life to Christ

[ChristDevotee]

To be honest, I have lived an active homosexual lifestyle, which continued even after my baptism in the Pentecostal church. I am now at the breaking point in which I am no longer satiated by my lusts after men and am disgusted when it comes to realizing Christ’s love for me and my lack of love for Him because of my sin which separates me from His arms, or so it feels.

I am hoping to get a rosary soon so that I can begin praying the rosary and the chaplet of Divine Mercy faithfully (hopefully everyday to the best of my ability) and draw closer to Jesus.

My patron saints are St. Jude, St. Anthony of Padua, and St. Francis of Assissi. My confirmation name will be Jude Anthony Francis.

The reason why I’m writing this is to find out, how, admist all of the chaos that goes on around me as a homosexual to devote my life to Christ even more deeply than ever before and is there really hope in overcoming these desires?

What is the best way to draw closer to God and to let go of my past and my homosexual lifestyle that has prevented me from feeling God’s presence in my life?

I’m not yet Catholic but will be soon, I pray. I cannot wait till my journey home is finally accomplished. The waiting is getting the best of me but the realization I will soon be home is always soothing and Christ’s love always overwhelms me when I’m at rock bottom…

 

[LilyM]

To be honest, I have lived an active homosexual lifestyle, which continued even after my baptism in the Pentecostal church. I am now at the breaking point in which I am no longer satiated by my lusts after men and am disgusted when it comes to realizing Christ’s love for me and my lack of love for Him because of my sin which separates me from His arms, or so it feels.

I am hoping to get a rosary soon so that I can begin praying the rosary and the chaplet of Divine Mercy faithfully (hopefully everyday to the best of my ability) and draw closer to Jesus.

My patron saints are St. Jude, St. Anthony of Padua, and St. Francis of Assissi. My confirmation name will be Jude Anthony Francis.

The reason why I’m writing this is to find out, how, admist all of the chaos that goes on around me as a homosexual to devote my life to Christ even more deeply than ever before and is there really hope in overcoming these desires?

What is the best way to draw closer to God?

I’m not yet Catholic but will be soon, I pray. I cannot wait till my journey home is finally accomplished. The waiting is getting the best of me but the realization I will soon be home is always soothing.

God bless. There are, I am sure, more than a few people on these forums who can speak to struggling with the homosexual lifestyle better than I can. I just wanted to say don’t wait until you’ve got a Rosary to start praying - God gave you ten fingers, nature’s own Rosary. Start praying the Rosary and the Divine Mercy Chaplet right now!

 

[Mini_gerbel]

The reason why I’m writing this is to find out, how, admist all of the chaos that goes on around me as a homosexual to devote my life to Christ even more deeply than ever before and is there really hope in overcoming these desires?

I think there is always the temptation to sin, but yes. There is much hope. We are loved by the God who made heaven,earth and you. He can help you overcome this. There are numerous points in the bible that say to depend on God and you shall overcome obstacles.

What is the best way to draw closer to God?

I havent had this problem recently. Others will give better advice. But I try to keep his commandments constantly when I feel far away. We have all heard “he that loves me, keeps my commandments” So I feel like I am showing God I love him by keeping his commandments.

Dont feel bad about your past. God isnt concerned with that. He is concerned with how much love you will show him today. Hope you feel better and welcome to the church!

 

[vee8]

Ditto what lilym said you can pray on your fingers you dont have to wait for an actual rosary I often pray counting on my fingers so you wouldnt be the only one.

We all struggle with sin whether it be acting on homosexual or heterosexual sexual desires for example but if the action breaks Gods laws it breaks Gods laws. We all have desires to overcome with the help of Gods grace and prayer such as the rosary and the chaplet are excellent for that. Of course confession and the Eucharist are even better but since you are not yet Catholic ( congratulations on being dragged here by the hound of heaven by the way :D) you will have to make do with prayers and offering up your sufferings for now. You can also before Jesus present in the Eucharist in the tabernacle or at adoration and pour out your heart. If you think you are so horrible how could God love you go to ewtns audio library and search for John Pridmore ( who will be speaking at world youth day soon) and Fr Donald Calloway and you will hear what God can do.

 

[ChristDevotee]

Thanks to those who have replied so far.

It is only by the Graces supplied by God that I am still alive and still negative (to this day and to my knowledge) of any STDs.

I remember in the past few years when I have prayed the rosary, said three Hail Marys morning, noon, and night, and prayed for the intercession of Mary, St. Jude, St. Michael, and the Holy Trinity to keep me safe and steadfast. Because of their intercession I am drawing closer to the Catholic Church and at the point in life where I realize Jesus is the only Man I can ever “fall in love” with and will never choose another over Him. His love is so pure and so honest that nothing could ever compare.

As for the rosary and chaplet on my fingers, it would be a good idea… but as I’ve thought about it… just praying “For the sake of His sorrowful passion, have mercy on us and on the whole world”, “Oh my Jesus, forgive us our sins, save us from the fires of hell, lead all souls into Heaven, especially those most in need of Your Mercy”, the Hail Mary, the Our Father, and the Glory Be… those will never have a limit in my heart… the rosary will be a great tool/weapon to have in my hand… but those prayers are the ones closest to my heart… I can say more of those than any rosary could ever keep count of and I’m sure my prayers will be heard just as much as one keeping count on the rosary…

 

[pippin]

Welcome to the Church, ChristDevotee. You may find Courage helpful. It is a Catholic support group for people with same sex attraction. You can find them on the web at couragerc.net

 

[SirOscar]

I am in agreement with the others.

We all have something that we struggle with in living out our Christian lives.

3 years ago, I started a journey. I started to say the rosary and the chaplet daily to help me through my struggles. I had nothing else to lose. I was on a downward spiral. Through the rosary, I fell in love with Jesus. It has been a beautiful journey because of that.

On the other hand, it has been hell, because I had to submit to where God was leading me, and that ultimately is to His Truth.

What helped me most of all was sitting at the feet of Jesus in the Blessed Sacrament. I didn’t believe, at first, that Jesus was literally there, nonetheless, I sat, cried, prayed for strength & wisdom.

Something wonderful happened…things began to get easier…and it is hard to explain. I still struggle, but it is easier. I think it became easier, because I started to thank God for my burdens and I started to accept them vs hating them, fighting them off or trying to solve them. It lifted my burden.

“Have no anxiety at all, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, make your requests known to God. Then the peace of God that surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.” Philipians 4:6-7

You are on a journey…and God is with you through it all.

God bless you!

 

[MarieVeronica]

Dear “ChristDevotee”. You are displaying great courage… in your desire to abandon the homosexual lifestyle. God love you. I’m convinced, that Our Lord is calling you to something great. And I’m so happy that you’re on the road, to becoming a Catholic and receiving the Sacraments! I will keep you in my prayers.

There are many people in the world who are called to live out the virtue of Chastity. Religious priests, brothers and sisters. And those who are unmarried, both heterosexual and homosexual. Sadly, in this era of media sex and violence… there are few who recognize or understand that this “call to chastity” is a great gift.

It is a specific call and a vocation, in itself. Men and women who live out the virtue of chastity… are, in a way… beginning life in Heaven… NOW on earth! (I didn’t make that up. lol. I read it). This truth is found in Sacred Scripture…

“For at the resurrection they will neither marry nor be given in marriage, but are as angels of God in Heaven.” (Matthew 22:30)

Doesn’t that just fill your heart with joy!!!

I agree about praying the Rosary and the Chaplet of Divine Mercy. Don’t wait. There’s no need for you to wait. Also, I would greatly encourage you to spend time in Adoration before the Blessed Sacrament. Our Lord will surely grant you floods of grace to assist you. May He bless you abundantly.

 

[KingAlfred]

To be honest, I have lived an active homosexual lifestyle, which continued even after my baptism in the Pentecostal church. I am now at the breaking point in which I am no longer satiated by my lusts after men and am disgusted when it comes to realizing Christ’s love for me and my lack of love for Him because of my sin which separates me from His arms, or so it feels.

I am hoping to get a rosary soon so that I can begin praying the rosary and the chaplet of Divine Mercy faithfully (hopefully everyday to the best of my ability) and draw closer to Jesus.

My patron saints are St. Jude, St. Anthony of Padua, and St. Francis of Assissi. My confirmation name will be Jude Anthony Francis.

The reason why I’m writing this is to find out, how, admist all of the chaos that goes on around me as a homosexual to devote my life to Christ even more deeply than ever before and is there really hope in overcoming these desires?

What is the best way to draw closer to God and to let go of my past and my homosexual lifestyle that has prevented me from feeling God’s presence in my life?

I’m not yet Catholic but will be soon, I pray. I cannot wait till my journey home is finally accomplished. The waiting is getting the best of me but the realization I will soon be home is always soothing and Christ’s love always overwhelms me when I’m at rock bottom…

I wish I could refer you to specific passages and teachings relative to homosexuality in the Catechism, but I find the way it’s organized too confusing to do so. The bottom line (and I’m sure you’re aware of this) is that the Church considers homosexual acts disordered. To remain in good standing with the Church, as a homosexual, you must live a chaste life, and not indulge your sexual impulses. In other words, you have to become celibate. Are you prepared to do that?