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mouse333
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I have been smoking 1-3 packs a day since I was 17. I am now 54. For four years I smoked 4 packs a day because I was ill through poor management of my psychiatric problems by doctors who didn’t care or didn’t understand. The system failed me. Smoking was my only outlet. When I was seventeen I made a suicide pact with my brother’s friend to kill myself through smoking by the time I was 35. My father had just sexually abused me. I didn’t tell my friend that. I wish he had asked. He was very obese and probably suicidal too.
The COPD seems to be in an advanced state. I gasp for breath when I stop smoking. The medication is helping a lot and I am getting rid of a lot of old congestion. But I’m told to quit smoking and I don’t know how.
I have a son. He is a recovering addict. This is a very sad story. He stays with my mother. She is feeding him cigarettes just as she did to me. He may go to jail. That would probably be in his best interest. My mother is walking fatality. She brings death. Two maids who came to the house to be interviewed years ago died on the way home. The friend who had referred them to her said she refused to refer any more. She is an atheist. I think that she may be Satanic. I told her I “punctuate” things by smoking. So she set me to “punctuate” absolutely everything with smoking. She uses the power of suggestion on me. She said that I should reward myself for working around the house with a cigarette whenever I was done with anything. So I have been so deep in this habit as in a tangle, for so long, I feel helpless.
Please pray for me, for my son, and for my mother’s soul. Also my father’s. He has been corrupted by her.
Please, oh please pray for us.
The COPD seems to be in an advanced state. I gasp for breath when I stop smoking. The medication is helping a lot and I am getting rid of a lot of old congestion. But I’m told to quit smoking and I don’t know how.
I have a son. He is a recovering addict. This is a very sad story. He stays with my mother. She is feeding him cigarettes just as she did to me. He may go to jail. That would probably be in his best interest. My mother is walking fatality. She brings death. Two maids who came to the house to be interviewed years ago died on the way home. The friend who had referred them to her said she refused to refer any more. She is an atheist. I think that she may be Satanic. I told her I “punctuate” things by smoking. So she set me to “punctuate” absolutely everything with smoking. She uses the power of suggestion on me. She said that I should reward myself for working around the house with a cigarette whenever I was done with anything. So I have been so deep in this habit as in a tangle, for so long, I feel helpless.
Please pray for me, for my son, and for my mother’s soul. Also my father’s. He has been corrupted by her.
Please, oh please pray for us.
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