Sometimes I could see smoke coming out of my ears when I would read certain commentaries on that subject.
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Boy oh boy, can I relate to THAT statement!
I think, sometimes, that any understanding our Good Lord gives us on some of these things is on the level of our deepest soul and not on the usual level (mentally / brain) of understanding. If this is so, it seems very fitting to me, since what’s involved is God’s great mysteries of love and the expressions of His mind and heart! How could we possibly handle that?
I’m reminded of something I ran across in my reading about an alleged event concerning St. Augustine. Allegedly, he was asked about his understanding of some mystery of God and/or the faith, or to explain something of that nature. He was supposed to have replied along the lines of (paraphrased): “I understand xx as long as you don’t ask me about it and as long as I don’t have to explain it.”

(maybe there’s a St. Augustine buff somewhere out there in CAF-land who will know, more precisely, what I’m referring to in that anecdote.) I don’t remember what ‘xx’ was; what mystery he was asked about.
But I could relate to that, too…Sometimes, I DO have a tenuous grasp on one or another of the ‘things of God’ - but it’s always, as St. Paul says, “as in a glass, darkly” and always on some level other than my everyday mind/brain! But, I could absolutely respond as St. Augustine did about it…i.e. I get it; just don’t ask me about it!

I kind of feel the same way about Einstein’s theory of relativity!
Anyway, I wanted to share just a small mention of something I heard/learned on retreat one time…I don’t know the theological validity of it (though I suspect it holds up), but it helped me to think about it when it came to the Sacred mystery of Jesus’ suffering.
It was this: Jesus was the Son of God; WAS God. He could have redeemed us in any of an infinite number of ways; any way He chose. His horrible sufferings were not essential to His saving / redeeming us…as I said, He could have chosen ANY way at all to accomplish our salvation. We know what he chose…and we know He could have stopped short of the worst of it and STILL redeemed us; nothing would have been lacking. And we would still have been utterly grateful and totally humbled. We would have still adored Him, reverenced Him and directed our lives to union with Him, in this life and the next.
But only by his going ‘all the way’ would we be convinced of His LOVE! Sometimes I don’t think we fully appreciate how vitally important it is (to us as human beings and the way we’re made) that we BE convinced that He LOVES US infinitely! And, even with each other, how hard it is to trust someone else’s love for us and to be sure they love us. What does infinite love look like, anyway? Now we know! St Paul said we preach Jesus, crucified; a crucified God - and I think that’s because we preach a God who IS LOVE. Somehow (God knowing us better than we know ourselves - from before the foundation of the world!), He knew what it would take to convince us that His love for us was all that it is!
I know that’s not the whole of it, but it helps me to meditate on that concept…
May His infinite love be with YOU, always!
