I am a Catholic; I was baptized, I go to Church, I pray to God, I try to do right by others, and I believe that The Papacy was created by Jesus when he handed Saint Peter the keys to Heaven and Earth.
However,
I disagree with some of The Church’s Teachings (specifically, the idea that Good People go to Hell).
It is not I am rebellious or that I like being difficult, nor is it because I dislike The Church or have any ill will in my heart for God, and it is certainly not out of any other form of malice. I disagree with this idea because it is downright terrifying and goes against the idea of God being just, merciful, just/fair, or even good. If you think I am thinking or doing something wrong, then bare in mind I am not choosing what bothers me.
I’m not sure I would call this a crisis of faith (I still believe in God and The Catholic Church no matter what), but it is a difficulty.
According to Church Doctrine, anyone who dies with an confessed mortal sin is automatically going to go to Hell. Regardless of how much control the person in question had over the situation (even if it was NO control) or of how many good works the person did in his life. A man could have lead a godly life, being kind and charitable and heroic and loving in everyday life, but if he committed a single Mortal Sin then he will be dragged off to Hell when he dies. In other words, some people who do good deeds with good intentions receive NO reward for it.
This is further complicated by what The Church considers to be mortal sins. Not being a Catholic if you’ve heard of Catholicism (only 1.2 of the 7 billion humans on earth are Catholics, which means 6.8 billion humans are already doomed to eternal suffering), not going to every single mass (only
24% of Catholics even claim to attend every mass), being an atheist or an agnostic (over 14% of all humans qualify, and God’s existence might not be as obvious to them as it is to us [it hits close to hoe for me, as one of my close relatives is an atheist]), Drug Usage (most drug users are addicts, meaning they can’t stop even if they wanted to [and many of them do wish very dearly that they could stop]), and prostitution (most prostitutes are forced into this job, either through sex-slavery or through the only alternative being “starve to death”).
To clarify why it bothers me, I should explain how I see Hell. Hell is the WORST punishment imaginable. Whenever I see someone on this forum say “so and so is dammed” or “so and so will go to Hell”, I internally visualize the person being talked about getting dragged kicking and screaming into a pit of fire and being tortured. NOTHING is worse than being in Hell, so I believe that only the worst of the worst really deserve it.
I’m forced to either believe that God
never lets good people go to Hell and that good works can be enough if done with good intentions, or that God is vindictive and angry (instead of merciful and loving).
If you have an explanation for how God can be loving while having a system by which
even one good person goes to Hell (let 6 out of every 7 humans alive today), please try to be patient in explaining it to me.
If you too are having a struggle with this or other aspects or teachings of The Church, feel free to share as well. Everyone has questions and difficulties at one point or another, so it does not mean something is wrong with you. This thread is supposed to be a safe place.