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zubakgeorge
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I have been in a bad way for a while, tempted by sins of gluttony, lust, isolation, fear, and betrayal, but yesterday I received complete forgiveness of my sins. I found that I wanted to do a 180 with my life, giving up a good many things I had previously done, in order to live my life more fully in the lord. I also found myself by sheer will able to discern god’s will perfectly (even if I sometimes made minor mistakes in doing what he was asking), and I was gifted with the ability to understand people, to tell when they were lying, to identify traps of the devil and the sins of my family, and so on. The experience was strange, humbling, and also peaceful. I found that I took to praying the saint Michael prayer a ton, I caused the evil one to retreat, I felt and acted upon a desire to place a hand on my mom’s head and pray the prayer of saint Michael for her, after asking her permission, as I knew without her permission, the prayer would be ineffective. I nearly convinced her to join the Catholic faith, which my father has been pursuing for years, and I would have convinced her had I better let the holy spirit guide me. I came into the house, prayed a prayer of saint Michael all around, but I felt great evil in the house. I know I had been the cause of much of it, but my family has taken to sins of gluttony, overwork, abuse, and worldliness. My father was the only one who refused to allow me to pray for him, a notion that was of satan. He is lost. How do I help him? Why do I know these things? I discovered in the car that I was able to understand my mother’s life, her hurts, her sins. I understood what was holding her back. I understood her sins. I helped her almost overcome them. What is this gift? How do I understand these things?