I told the priest I had done it, and that I knew it was wrong, and (like some posters here) he said I couldn’t have done it because Catholics NEVER do it. Like he was telling me that I was wrong, that I didn’t know what I did, because the party line is that Catholics NEVER do it…so I couldn’t have…even though I did.
It is as if I said “father, I stole a candy bar”, and he answered, “No, you couldn’t have, because Catholics don’t steal candy bars, the church teaches that stealing candy bars is wrong, so Catholics don’t do it”
and I said “but Father, I DID steal a candy bar.”
and he refused to talk about it any more and simply repeated that it was impossible, because Catholics know better than to steal a candy bar.
It was like that. So, I got very confused, and very afraid, because I couldn’t even get the situation dealt with. You can’t confess and be forgiven of something that is denied to exist by the confessor. Does that make sense?
Except it wasn’t a candy bar, it was giving Mary improper honor and worship.
They wouldn’t talk about it, they just told me such a thing doesn’t exist, the line is “we can never show her enough honor”. I was told that nothing I could do or say could ever show Mary enough honor, let alone too much.
It was many years ago, and I’ve never been able to really receive resolution on it. It continues to be a source of pain and confusion.
Calliope