So, when you’re able to attend Mass, you don’t feel that excitement in the air, that eager anticipation of something glorious about to happen? What is it you think you’re to get out of Mass? Just going to Confession and receiving Jesus in the Eucharist? What do those two things do for your soul?
You speak of your mom “making you” go to Confession and then to Communion. It sounds like you resented having to do either one. But she was teaching you obedience and reverence for the One who forgives without ceasing and who wants to embrace you and fill you with His Love and give you His Peace.
When I was little, I couldn’t wait to go to Confession because I knew I would be forgiven of my sins by Jesus. Then I would be able to receive Him with a clean heart in the Eucharist. My mother was a Protestant. So she didn’t understand these things. But she took me to Mass every Sunday and she learned.
As for going to Mass on Easter, if you’re able to go, yes. But if you have a valid reason for not going, you’re excused, For instance, if you’re sick or taking care of someone who is sick or frail, you are excused. If you must work, you’re excused. My mother worked in the health care industry for most of her working life. Her job required her to be on call weekends as well as during the week. So she couldn’t always go to Mass with me. And she wasn’t raised with Daily Mass. So Holy Days of Obligation after her retirement was a real eye opener. There is always something to learn in the Catholic Church.
You said the nearest parish to you is 1.5 hrs away. Do you have a Catholic hospital nearby? You could attend Mass there if you could find transportation. On the days that you can’t get to Mass, you could arrange with your priest to have the Eucharist brought to you. But if you needed to confess your sins, that person would have to be your priest.
There is also Mass on EWTN. Many shut-ins and those with health issues are unable to attend Mass personally but do so in spirit via EWTN’s airing of the Daily and Sunday Masses.
Oh, the Mass is so joyful. To worship together, to lift our voices in song praising and glorifying Him, to pray, to share the Sign of Peace, to receive Jesus in the Eucharist. Mass is so much more than just going to Confession and receiving Communion. Spending that hour with Our Lord and Savior and feeling His Love. Looking forward to the day when we will kneel before Him in Heaven and be with Him for eternity.
He is alive! And He is fully present! How can you not feel excited that you are going to see and spend time with the King of kings? Oh my gosh! It’s such an honor. And when one can attend 2 Masses in the same day, it’s a double blessing.