Thanks for all your replies. They’ve been a great help to me. I’m somewhat better today. And I’ll hopefully be even better by the end of the week because I’m taking Thursday & Friday off since its Holy Week and hopefully I’ll have time to settle down and just spend some time with God. Thanks again for all your replies and please keep me and all the rest in this same situation in your prayers!
Let me throw out some ideas, and hope one helps:
You have a great idea for Triduum: refresh, recharge, and let your focus be on God instead of work. Lift up your sorrow and frustration and just place it all in His hands so you can focus solely on Him.
Remember, your actions/tasks/duties at work ARE prayers. I remember reading several books about nuns/sisters and with each task (menial or important) their charism instructed them to believe that:
a) there is a time and a place for everything. A stopping point for formal prayer at an appointed time (even if you have to run to the ladies’ room) will do wonders. And it works for me! At exactly 10:00 or 2:00 (usually when the smokers take thir breaks) I would disappear for 5 minutes and offer up an informal prayer to praise God, and thank Him for the opportunity to serve Him. It’s also ok to say, “God, this is overwhelming - this sucks!” He knows.
b) I have read from the same books to believe that there is nothing more important that doing the work in front of you (worked for me in Basic Training and subsequent deployments), because the act itself is a prayer unto God. You’re not meeting a deadline for your boss, you are working thoroughly, methodically, and doing it for God. Take heart.
It’s not from Scripture, but from the
Desiderata: be gentle with yourself. Your home is your sanctuary, in which only God and your family are allowed. All other people and issues need permission to enter. This should help you to leave work at work. Listen to CAL or on your iPod during your commute.
Perhaps you could ask your supervisor for an assistant (even a temp or intern)?
I’ll be praying to St. Joseph, patron saint of workers, for you.