Look at my avatar picture, the Prajnaparamita of Java. I am Buddhist; I don’t know if you consider that pagan or not.
I’ll put it this way–I didn’t conclude ‘pagan’ based on the Buddist avatar, but on your statement that you are “…10’s of 1,000’s of gods.” away from atheism (i.e.–that you recognize multiple gods).
“Pagan” generally means not Jewish, Muslim or Christian; though I generally use it as synonymous with polytheist (influenced by St. Augustine’s City of God, which I cited above–you may have noticed…).
There is a third option besides chance and design: necessity. See Monod, Dembski and others.
What is ‘necessity’, in the absence of intelligence, design, or purpose???
If there is no purpose…there is no need…and therefore there can be no ‘necessity’.
Ergo…accidental. (still).
Specifically, evolution is a combination of chance (random mutations) and necessity (natural selection). That combination can give the appearance of design without actual design.
Perhaps, if one subscribes to the theory of omnipotent happenstance and infinitely convenient accidentalism…
(It’s evidence of intelligence).
For a non evolutionary example, look at the sorting of the pebbles on Chesil Beach. Local fishermen could tell where they were at night by checking the size of the pebbles which told them how far north on the beach they were.
That beach has the appearance of design without any actual design. The action of waves has sorted the pebbles into order of size. No intelligence required.
Never heard of this beach, but I don’t see the differentiating of pebble size along a beach, as a very compelling analogy. That order can happen accidentally (or rather, be perceived) in nature, does not buttress the notion that order can re-order itself, and grow more complex, efficient and effective as if seeking to discharge a purpose…though there be no purpose at all (then it becomes a matter of one accident piled on another, building on the last, and conveniently ever more complex and sophisticated…).
btw, shall I take it that your gods don’t have an answer for the origin of complexity and intelligence either?