A few random comments
Philthy. I don’t connect independent thinking with being a sinner, as you apparently do. I know many people were put to death because they were heretics, then viewed as a serious sin, but I hope that notion is long dead. I recall my shock when, in reading Aquinas I discovered that he favored the execution of heretics! I must say that this suddenly weakened by respect for his opinions even though he obviously was a great and systematic scholar.
You apparentlky question my qualifications to come to different conclusions on theology than those arrived at by ancient and medieval councils. I understand this. Traditional Catholicism teaches, of course, that God will preserve the church from doctrinal error. I simply can’t believe that. I respect the theological opinions of others and wish that the Catholic Church showed more respect for those who disagree. They are dogmatic when it comes to only ‘one true church’ and it’s theirs. As I probably have stated several times, I put my trust in God and not in churches, preachers, or theologies.
I think it’s great that a host of Christian scholars express different views re this magnificent universe and our life here. As stated earlier, I’ve read (and continue to read) many Catholic scholars, including the Church Fathers, but also such Protestant scholars as Niebuhr, Tillich, Barth, Bunner, etc. One of my favorite books is entitled “The Christian Agnostic” by a British Methodist ckergyman - Weatherford, maybe, his name. I rather found myself in this book. He was (deceased now) devoted to Jesus but when it came to such questions as the origin of the universe, the historicity of the Old Testament, the accuracy of the Nativity accounts in the Gospels, the precise nature of Christ, the end times, afterlife, etc., he felt that one could (and probably should) be agnostic - not claiming to know precisely the answers, but full of faith and interested in various perspectives.
True, people believe in ghosts and such today. As I recall some poll found that as many as 25% of American believe in ghosts, and millions turn to the horoscope every day. To be honest, there are things within traditional Catholicism that smack too much (in my opinion) of such ideas. All those rather wild stories about past saints. I see stories of Padre Pio, a ‘modern’ saint, and how he levitated, bilocated, etc. Millions believe in such things, but I remain a skeptic. Many Protestants as well as Catholics accept on faith all manner of faith healings, exorcisms, and whatnot. Sorry, I have a problem with such things, though I go along with the idea that faith can help overcome illness and sometimes help with various forms of psychological illness, Demons? No.
Other points. Remember when the lawyer confronted Jesus and asked him point-blank how he could have inherited eternal life? It always has struck me that he avoided any theological doctrine in his response but simply said love God and your neighbor. Then, when the lawyer persisted, Jesus gave the parable of the Good Samaritan. The hero? A Samaritan, who had intermarried, held to a different faith, and was despised by the Jews. This suggests to me that we are not be judged by our doctrines but by our love. Remember, too, when Jesus told about those going to heaven and hell - the sheep and the goats, as I recall. When did we see you hungry? When did we visit you in prison? Etc. Not a word about doctrine, again.
Oh, and by the way. I;ve always been puzzled by that passage in which someone refers to Jesus as good. Jesus replies: “Why do you call me good? There is only one good, and that is God.” Hm! Still causes me to wonder what Jesus meant by that.
I was asked about the Trappist monastery. It was at Oka in Quebec. My paternal family is of French-Canadian (Quebec) heritage. I spent two brief times years ago when I was struggling with just such matters as are discussed here. The ‘guest father’ was very kind and patient and tried to ‘straighten me out’. Oka was then full of priests and lay brothers, noted for its cheese, etc. The last time I visited, perhaps a decade or so ago now, there were a handful of quite elderly monks, less than a dozen as I recall, complaining that the younger generation is no longer willing to make the sacrifices they had made. In fact, Quebec over the past 30-40 years has moved from a citadel of devout Catholicism to becoming very secular. This past summer we visited the town where my Grandmother had lived as a child. The large Catholic Church there is up for sale. I really don’t understand the rapid change. Some say delayed backlash to church dominance for 350 or so years???
That’s more than enough for now. God bless everybody. If you are comfortable being a devout Catholic, accepting the Church’s doctrines as infallible, fine. Obviously, I can’t. I am finding myself attracted to ‘big tent’ Christianity that permit a variety of beliefs. This seems to exist in some of the mainline denominations, such as Episcopalian, Methodist, Presbyterian and United Church of Christ. But, as Christ commanded, I do my best to love everybody.