God wants me to go to heaven, he is all powerful, yet does he let me be damned for all eternity? Does God look on and say you have free will, I will not interfere, but I will give you grace and a guardian angel and after that it is up to you.
To me a merciful all-powerful creator allowing me to go to hell seems difficult to grasp.
If God is loving and all powerful how can anyone suffer in torments for ever?
Please help.
Well, if hell isn’t eternal, why should heaven be? We may have difficulty grasping the eternity of hell, but no one seems it difficult to grasp the eternity of heaven as if we deserve it and it’s our right. In the after life, maybe God should have assigned a certain number of years for punishment for the wicked, say 5000 years of merited punishment for some person (I think this would be the easy way out for the wicked), and say 5000 years of merited happiness for some good person, and when this time was completed annihilated both. Of course, the good God has promised the good something far better, namely, eternal happiness.
Your focus concerning your difficulty seems to be on God’s mercy and love. There is nothing wrong about thinking about God’s mercy and love for God is infinitely merciful and loving. But these are not the only attributes of God. God is also infinitely just. We are not going to have a proper idea of God if we say God is merciful and loving to the exclusion of his justice. The scriptures, both the Old and New Testaments, abound about the justice of God. I personally would not want to live in this world with its many injustices and crimes committed by humans against other humans and at the same time worship a God in whom there was no justice or who had no idea of justice. I’m sure there have been many people in the history of the human race who have been victims whether personally or family related of heineous crimes whose only hope of having justice being done them would be in the next life where the perfect justice of God will prevail.
So, I suggest that might help your difficulty is to look at that other attribute of God which concerns his justice. What is justice? What is perfect justice? What is infinitely perfect justice of which God is? For starters concerning justice, one can look at how governments apply justice or at least how it should be applied justly; there are courts of law, laws are enacted and enforced and punishments dished out to the breakers of the law which can include imprisonment. Read also the Bible in which we can find many instances of the justice of God being executed in one way or another upon the Israelites and other nations or upon particular persons. The Ten Commandments and the Law that God gave through Moses to the Israelites as the scriptures say is a just law.
God wants his children to be in heaven with him forever. But he will not force us to love and serve him, he gave us free will. I cannot think of a greater deterrent God could have given us to keep his commandments than the eternal punishment of hell-fire. Now, if there are some people who don’t fear or care about being eternally punished, than in my opinion, such a soul is truly lost and there is no remedy.
The punishment of hell-fire is eternal. This is what Jesus said and the Holy Scriptures which is the word of God. And if we don’t believe in the word of God, whose word can we believe in? Perfect justice is not had in this world. It only makes sense that perfect justice is going to prevail in some other world, namely, the next life and the end of the world. I would also suggest that instead of doubting or calling into question the eternity of hell, why not focus on getting to heaven and doing all you can to get to heaven and you won’t have to worry about going to hell. Do you want eternal happiness or eternal misery? Leave the wicked and their fate in the hands of God.