So rather than discern for yourself, you let your wife discern for you?
Why not? We are of one flesh, it does not make sense that I become Orthodox and she does not. I know some people do it, but not for me. My previous bishop gave me a wonderful advice about it (he was actually referring to canonically transferring to the UGCC). He said that we should always do it as a family. I sort of dragged her into the UGCC, so it is also only fair that she makes a call on this one. If she said at the time that she wants us return to the Roman Catholic Church instead, I would have sucked it up and gone.
I would have thought that doctrinal differences between Orthodox and Catholic would have everything to do with whether a person left one church for the other. Frankly, you seem to treat these different faiths as if they were equal in all respects, and that you were only looking to see which one suited you the best, but at the same time you wanted God to ratify your choice (which he didn’t, as you explained it, your wife did, and that is not the same thing. Sounds almost like you were looking for permission to do something wrong. But that’s just me talking… ).
There were doctrinal issues. At the time I wasn’t that deep into learning, I was aware of the usual issues about the Pope. Frankly, to this day, I don’t think anyone of us can make a clear indication what the true teaching is on that one. Everything the Catholics have to say, the Orthodox has a response. Everything the Orthodox has to say, the Catholics has a response. If hundreds of years of theological debates and discussions between seasoned theologians haven’t been able to resolve this, what hope does you and I have at resolving this? At the end of the day, we can only inform ourselves as much, pray, and follow our conscience.
God did ratify my choice, through my wife. What are you expecting, a writing in the sky? Stone tablets? In Orthodoxy the purpose of every Sacrament is to lead us to the Kingdom of God. Marriage is a Sacrament. Therefore God can speak to me through my wife, and to my wife through me. Why does that sound ridiculous to you?
Your approach to spirituality seems self-centric as if truth were relative to the particular person. The doctrinal differences apparently do not matter as much to you as the feeling or personal sense of fit the particular church gives you. In the end you satisfied your unwilling conscience, or so you thought, by allowing your wife to make the decision for you.
Of course it matters to me. Read up all my recent posts. Do you think converting is easy? Do you think you just read up on something and have that “aha!” moment? The reason I even found myself in an Orthodox parish visiting is because in my mind, in my heart, I was already Orthodox. But giving up the Catholic Church is a huge deal (or any faith, for that matter) especially that I come from a culture that is fully integrated with the Roman Catholic faith, and all my family are Roman Catholics.
Is it your opinion that doctrinal differences are “higher level differences” that do not have any meaning at the lower levels of practicing your faith? Apparently you did “not” discern that either of the churches, Catholic or Orthodox, was the “one, true church” founded by Christ. If you had, discernment would have been no problem.
I know today that Orthodoxy is the one true faith of the one true Church. Look, I told a story on how the process went. If I were to go into every little detail I would end up writing a novel. My post was long enough as it is, and I’m thankful that you read through it. Obviously you are expecting more, but my intention is not to tell everything about it. That just takes a lot of time for me to write and for people to read. The whole process from growing in faith in Roman Catholicism to Eastern Catholicism to Orthodoxy took at least 4 years. There are plenty of details there.
Christ is not for disunity, and yet these two faiths are split apart from each other. But since you did not discern one or the other to be the “one” church, then you were already departed from the Catholic Church at the outset of your discernment without your realizing it. Does it matter? Noticing that the two churches have grown apart more and more by doctrines they do not have in common is proof to me that it does in fact really matter. The Holy Spirit cannot be guiding the two churches into error. One or the other (or both) is not in sync with the Spirit of God. This should be of paramount importance to anyone wishing to deepen his faith and spiritual walk.
I hate the fact that you’d rather criticize than ask questions. As I said, the whole process is huge and it was never my intention to outline every little detail. Just because I didn’t mention it, you are now accusing me of all these thing. I did not take my conversion lightly. I did not write my life story here
so do not be the judge of me.