Dreamt I was a Catholic and woke up sad

[AspiringToJoyfulness]

I dreamed I was at Mass and I didn’t go up for communion because I wasn’t Catholic. The woman (yes I know women can’t be priests, it was a dream) and she and I talked after the ceremony and she gave me brochures and things on the church and what they do. It felt really nice until I woke up, stuck in the same place I’ve been stuck for years. I wish I had never come to live with him. But it was my choice and now I have to live with it.

 

[Zaccheus]

May I pray for you, Aspiring?

Are you non-Catholic and wishing to be Catholic?

 

[AspiringToJoyfulness]

You may, I’d be grateful.

I’m non-Catholic and very confused at this point. I feel like all I do is whine about it but I’ve had several moments that made me aspire to be Catholic. I try to bury them so my life proceeds uninterrupted (fiancé is an extreme antitheist who hates the church) but they keep bubbling up to the surface.

 

[Zaccheus]

Praying for you now.

 

[AspiringToJoyfulness]

I thank you warmly.

 

[Limoncello4021]

God may or may not hit you over the head to get moving. It is something you are going to have to do. You cannot lived in this impasse forever; that’s certainly not what God wants. If you are being drawn to Catholicism (and it sounds like you are) please muster up the courage and take action. Join RCIA now at your local church and begin to have a regular prayer time. Attend Mass on Sundays. In short, you’ve got to make an effort. Remember what Christ said about being lukewarm. It is a warning to all of us. I will pray for you.

 

[Irishmom2]

OP, I would like to suggest that you go back and read your own post. Really read it carefully in lieu of what you just told us.

I told my fiance I want to become Catholic Family Life

…and it was a mess. He wondered if I was the right person for him and told me he has a huge problem with the church and would not accomodate a Catholic lifestyle. I love him. I can’t leave him. I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel so alone. Edit: now he is watching atheist videos on Youtube so I can hear them.

You are not powerless, you are afraid to move. Some women put up with the wrong men just to have someone. It’s 3 years later and you are still not married.There is a reason. Thank God you are not married to this man and get out of this situation. It isn’t making your life better, only worse. No, you do not have to live with it.

Break it off, move out, even if you have to sleep on a friend’s couch or get help from a government agency.

He is controlling you and making your life less than what it could be : happy.

Please, get some counseling if need be, to grow your confidence and self esteem. God does not intend for your life to be miserable, and you do not need to stay stuck where you are physically or spiritually. No person has the right to keep you from your relationship with God. No one.

 

[Tis_Bearself]

You don’t need to stay with this guy. You’re not married to him.
You making posts like this thread makes it sound like on some level you really do not want to be with him.
Please, seriously consider whether you want to be attached for life to someone who “hates the Church”. This isn’t just a matter of him being an unbeliever (atheist/ agnostic), as many of those folks are relatively calm about their unbelief. Rather, it sounds like he has some deep seated problems with “hate” and “antitheism” that will become your problems also if you get married to him. I would run the other way while you still can.