“Former revert”. You obviously are unable to see the problem/contridiction/dark humor in what those two words…wow. Let me put this as nicely as I can: we have NOTHING in common.
Anyway. I’m not into online counseling, but I’ve told you before, your problems with religion in general go much deeper than theological. A simple read through your posting history reveals more than maybe you wished to. Lemmie put it this way, if I were still a preacher in a Baptist church, I would be VERY LEERY of your darkening the door of the church.
You have ping-ponged back and forth so many times, I seriously dont think you know what you believe. If you stuck with one religion, I could at least respect that.
But you are all over the map.
I think seriously what you should do is stop worrying about what Catholics or Protestants or what anyone else believes. And try to find out why you are such an unsettled person. That might mean some conseling.
Not trying to be mean. just in a hurry this morning and I am trying to be direct and honest.
I hope you find peace.