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Hi everybody!
I think I need some help… But first some background-
My mother died a couple of months ago, I’m the oldest daughter of the family (3 kids), so I have been burdened with a lot of housework and homeschooling my sister. I am also looking into getting a job, but only after some classes that I’m going to take ( I had been planning this way before my mother died).
I don’t know why, but I feel as if I want to kill everything that moves, yell at anybody that talks to me, and I just don’t want to be even remotely touched or looked at. It all just annoys me so bad, that I get angry, if not irate. I don’t want to be this way, and I try to be nice to everybody (seems to be having an affect on my family right now), but it’s seemingly impossible.
Everything I do, doesn’t seem to be enough, and I feel like I’m useless, not doing anything at all, even after doing laundry, and other chores such as dishes. I feel like my life is lacking construction, or purpose. It’s a big mess, and it doesn’t feel like it’s going to get better any time soon. I feel like up and leaving, starting a new life over, and pretend nothing is wrong…But I know that it won’t do me any good either. I feel like I’m on the verge of a nervous break-down, or something like it.
I think I need some help… But first some background-
My mother died a couple of months ago, I’m the oldest daughter of the family (3 kids), so I have been burdened with a lot of housework and homeschooling my sister. I am also looking into getting a job, but only after some classes that I’m going to take ( I had been planning this way before my mother died).
I don’t know why, but I feel as if I want to kill everything that moves, yell at anybody that talks to me, and I just don’t want to be even remotely touched or looked at. It all just annoys me so bad, that I get angry, if not irate. I don’t want to be this way, and I try to be nice to everybody (seems to be having an affect on my family right now), but it’s seemingly impossible.
Everything I do, doesn’t seem to be enough, and I feel like I’m useless, not doing anything at all, even after doing laundry, and other chores such as dishes. I feel like my life is lacking construction, or purpose. It’s a big mess, and it doesn’t feel like it’s going to get better any time soon. I feel like up and leaving, starting a new life over, and pretend nothing is wrong…But I know that it won’t do me any good either. I feel like I’m on the verge of a nervous break-down, or something like it.