End of my rope

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I don’t even know how to begin.

I’m just so sick of my life being nothing but garbage. I’m still grieving the loss of my mother, and during her illness last year, I neglected myself. I put on weight and I started to suffer stress related hair loss. I’ve been trying to lose weight and feel like I’ve been making progress, but a cab driver this morning asked me if this is my first baby. i told him no, I’m not pregnant. I’m just fat. I’m wearing a size 8 dress. Why do peple do things like this to me? I know it’s vanity, but I can’t even stand to look in the mirror because what I see doesn’t bear any resemblance ot how I am used to seeing myself. My hair is still a mess, Because of it, I’m incredibly self conscious and I have no confidence in myself at work. I don’t even want to get out of bed in the morning and to be pefectly honest, if were to fall asleep and not wake up, it would be a relief. Not having my mother to talk to makes it even worse. I"m alone and I feel like I want to die. . I just don’t see things getting any better and I’m ashamed to pray about these things because I feel like they are so superficial, but the superficial is really affecting me psychologically. I feel like God is disappointed in me for feeling the way I do.
 
I am so sorry for your loss. It sounds like you are experiencing deep depression. Please make an appointment with a doctor and with your priest.

Your appearance has changed. It is an outward sign of inner distress. The connection between mind and body is well established and is how God designed us. It’s ok to pray for peace, healing, and the strength to continue on and to make positive changes to restore physical and mental health.

Praying for you.
 
OK, that is not the end of the rope, it is the beginning of another rope, the rope that will help you to the surface again. So of you go to your GP and tell him/her your story. And don’t worry about your weight, or a stupid cab-driver. You are who you are and be d… sure to not forget it. You are worth much more then the next-door skinny gal who have not a clue what life is, yet. And don’t forget, in God’s eyes you are perfect.
 
MJJean said:
I am so sorry for your loss. It sounds like you are experiencing deep depression. Please make an appointment with a doctor and with your priest.

Your appearance has changed. It is an outward sign of inner distress. The connection between mind and body is well established and is how God designed us. It’s ok to pray for peace, healing, and the strength to continue on and to make positive changes to restore physical and mental health.

Praying for you.
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Lasting_faith said:
OK, that is not the end of the rope, it is the beginning of another rope, the rope that will help you to the surface again. So of you go to your GP and tell him/her your story. And don’t worry about your weight, or a stupid cab-driver. You are who you are and be d… sure to not forget it. You are worth much more then the next-door skinny gal who have not a clue what life is, yet. And don’t forget, in God’s eyes you are perfect.
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please get help, please come here for many, many prayers.

:gopray:

Our Father, Who art in heaven
Hallowed be Your Name
Thy kingdom come,
Thy will be done,
on earth as it is in heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread,
and forgive us our trespasses,
as we forgive those who trespass against us;
and lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from evil.
For Thine is the Kingdom
and the Power
and the Glory for ever and ever.
Amen.

Ave Maria, gratia plena,
Dominus tecum,
benedicta tu in mulieribus,
et benedictus fructus ventris tui Iesus.
Sancta Maria mater Dei,
ora pro nobis peccatoribus, nunc, et in hora mortis nostrae.
Amen

:gopray:
 
DeniseNY said:
I don’t even know how to begin.

I’m just so sick of my life being nothing but garbage. I’m still grieving the loss of my mother, and during her illness last year, I neglected myself. I put on weight and I started to suffer stress related hair loss. I’ve been trying to lose weight and feel like I’ve been making progress, but a cab driver this morning asked me if this is my first baby. i told him no, I’m not pregnant. I’m just fat. I’m wearing a size 8 dress. Why do peple do things like this to me? I know it’s vanity, but I can’t even stand to look in the mirror because what I see doesn’t bear any resemblance ot how I am used to seeing myself. My hair is still a mess, Because of it, I’m incredibly self conscious and I have no confidence in myself at work. I don’t even want to get out of bed in the morning and to be pefectly honest, if were to fall asleep and not wake up, it would be a relief. Not having my mother to talk to makes it even worse. I"m alone and I feel like I want to die. . I just don’t see things getting any better and I’m ashamed to pray about these things because I feel like they are so superficial, but the superficial is really affecting me psychologically. I feel like God is disappointed in me for feeling the way I do.
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Lord help DeniseNY, allow the sould of her mother to find peace and give her peace as well.

Lord Jesus you came to sacrifice yourself so that sin may be forgiven us. By your example we learn that suffering has merit. Allow, all of us, to learn to suffer for others. For the souls in Purgatory, for each other.

I offer a physical mortification for this soul.

Amen

Our Father who art in Heaven, hallowed be thy name.
Thy kingdom come, thy will be done on Earth as it is in Heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread.
And forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us.
And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.
Amen.

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee.
Blessed are you among women, and blessed is the fruit of your womb Jesus.
Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death.
Amen.

Glory Be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit.
As it was in the beginning is now ever shall be world without end
Amen.

Remember, O most gracious Virgin Mary, that never was it known that anyone who fled to thy protection, implored thy help, or sought thy intercession, was left unaided.
Inspired by this confidence, I fly unto thee, O Virgin of virgins, my Mother. To thee do I come, before thee I stand, sinful and sorrowful. O Mother of the Word Incarnate, despise not my petitions, but in thy mercy, hear and answer me. Amen
 
Prayers for you!

It does sound like you are depressed, so please do seek medical and spiritual help. Also ask Mary to hold you close to her and ask your Guardian Angel to help you through this.

I lost both my parents within a few weeks of each other, just over two years ago. I still miss them terribly. But it does get better. For me, it helped me to turn to God more.

(I agree that size 8 is still very thin!)
 
Size 8 and you call yourself fat? Most of America is bigger than that!

If you are seeing yourself as fat and your life being “garbage,” you need to talk with a counselor.
 
Dear Denise I send you love and (((hugs))) xo.
I am so very sorry for your pain and your whole situation. I know I react as you when I am down and neglect myself and gain weight! Honestly though you are very slim and a lovely size.Goodness I wish I was a size 8! The Cab driver was mistaken try to ignore his comments.You are grieving, be gentle with yourself and allow yourself time to adjust. It is so painful when we lose those we love and the pain is one thing but not having them around to talk to when we need them is another…I understand as I miss my father so very much also. You will find that your life will move on and you will find acceptance but it will take time. In the meantime please know you are in my thoughts and prayers.
Love to you
God bless you

Lord please bless our dear Friend Denise. She is grieving and suffering with great worry and sadness causing health problems. She feels lonely and self conscious and feels she has no confidence and low self esteem.Lord please place Your healing hand upon her and bring her healing emotionally, psychologically, spiritually and physically.Lord please grant Denise strength of faith that she will feel better very soon.Thankyou Lord for hearing our prayers Amen

Eternal God , in whom mercy is endless,
and the treasury of compassion inexhastible ,
look kindly upon us and increase Your mercy in us ,
that in difficult moments we might not despair
nor become despondent , but with great confidence ,
submit ourselves to Your Holy Will ,
which is love and mercy itself . Amen

Memorare (Prayer to Our Lady)
Remember, O most gracious Virgin Mary, that never was it known that anyone who fled to your protection, implored your help, or sought your intercession, was left unaided.
Inspired by this confidence, I fly unto you, O Virgin of virgins, my Mother. To you do I come, before you I stand, sinful and sorrowful. O Mother of the Word Incarnate, despise not my petitions, but in your mercy, hear and answer me. Amen
 
Sailor_Kenshin said:
If you’re a size 8 you ARE skinny.
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Sorry. Did not realize this was a prayer intention.

Hail Mary,
Full of Grace,
The Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women,
and blessed is the fruit
of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary,
Mother of God,
pray for us sinners now,
and at the hour of death.
Amen.
 
Romans 8:28

Revised Standard Version (RSV)

28 We know that in everything God works for good with those who love him, who are called according to his purpose.
 
DeniseNY said:
I don’t even know how to begin.

I’m just so sick of my life being nothing but garbage. I’m still grieving the loss of my mother, and during her illness last year, I neglected myself. I put on weight and I started to suffer stress related hair loss. I’ve been trying to lose weight and feel like I’ve been making progress, but a cab driver this morning asked me if this is my first baby. i told him no, I’m not pregnant. I’m just fat. I’m wearing a size 8 dress. Why do peple do things like this to me? I know it’s vanity, but I can’t even stand to look in the mirror because what I see doesn’t bear any resemblance ot how I am used to seeing myself. My hair is still a mess, Because of it, I’m incredibly self conscious and I have no confidence in myself at work. I don’t even want to get out of bed in the morning and to be pefectly honest, if were to fall asleep and not wake up, it would be a relief. Not having my mother to talk to makes it even worse. I"m alone and I feel like I want to die. . I just don’t see things getting any better and I’m ashamed to pray about these things because I feel like they are so superficial, but the superficial is really affecting me psychologically. I feel like God is disappointed in me for feeling the way I do.
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You will be in my prayers.
 
cheezey said:
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please get help, please come here for many, many prayers.

:gopray:

Our Father, Who art in heaven
Hallowed be Your Name
Thy kingdom come,
Thy will be done,
on earth as it is in heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread,
and forgive us our trespasses,
as we forgive those who trespass against us;
and lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from evil.
For Thine is the Kingdom
and the Power
and the Glory for ever and ever.
Amen.

Ave Maria, gratia plena,
Dominus tecum,
benedicta tu in mulieribus,
et benedictus fructus ventris tui Iesus.
Sancta Maria mater Dei,
ora pro nobis peccatoribus, nunc, et in hora mortis nostrae.
Amen

:gopray:
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:amen:

Lord, have mercy.
Christ, have mercy.
Lord, have mercy.

Hail Mary, full of Grace, the Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou amongst women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners now, and at the hour of our death.
Amen.
 
DeniseNY said:
I don’t even know how to begin.

I’m just so sick of my life being nothing but garbage. I’m still grieving the loss of my mother, and during her illness last year, I neglected myself. I put on weight and I started to suffer stress related hair loss. I’ve been trying to lose weight and feel like I’ve been making progress, but a cab driver this morning asked me if this is my first baby. i told him no, I’m not pregnant. I’m just fat. I’m wearing a size 8 dress. Why do peple do things like this to me? I know it’s vanity, but I can’t even stand to look in the mirror because what I see doesn’t bear any resemblance ot how I am used to seeing myself. My hair is still a mess, Because of it, I’m incredibly self conscious and I have no confidence in myself at work. I don’t even want to get out of bed in the morning and to be pefectly honest, if were to fall asleep and not wake up, it would be a relief. Not having my mother to talk to makes it even worse. I"m alone and I feel like I want to die. . I just don’t see things getting any better and I’m ashamed to pray about these things because I feel like they are so superficial, but the superficial is really affecting me psychologically. I feel like God is disappointed in me for feeling the way I do.
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It sounds like you’ve had a really tough time for quite a while now. It’s perfectly natural to feel depressed, and as others have said, there is help for you. See your doctor. Meanwhile I am praying for you! 🙂
 
I’m so sorry for your loss - I felt pretty down when my dad passed away. I can tell you that time does heal and especially when you can look up and know that they are watching over you. YOU ARE NOT AT THE END OF YOUR ROPE. It sounds like the devil is taking advantage of your vulnerability and you have to take control and tell him to back off and let God take over. DO NOT LOSE FAITH. I have been through the worst of time and if you keep God by your side through everything - things will get better. As far as the weight thing - size 8 is the perfect size. People can be mean - pray for them because they need it. Please call your priest and talk with him. My priest got my daughter and I through very tragic events. Go talk to him and keep talking to God EVERY DAY. I’ll keep praying for you. Hang in there.
 
Denise,
Please go straight to a doctor and ask him/her to do a
THYROID FUNCTION TEST.
Including T3 and T4

Your hair falling out and the obvious signs of weight gain and depression indicate that there is probably something wrong there. Please do this as a matter of priority.

I am praying for you right now, for your health and consolation and strength. But go to the doctor right away and ask for the above test.

When you are feeling confused and not sure of God’s will, just stop for a moment and ask that the “Precious Blood of Jesus, wash over me and heal me”

Please keep us updated DeniseNY. 🙂
 
DeniseNY said:
I don’t even know how to begin.

I’m just so sick of my life being nothing but garbage. I’m still grieving the loss of my mother, and during her illness last year, I neglected myself. I put on weight and I started to suffer stress related hair loss. I’ve been trying to lose weight and feel like I’ve been making progress, but a cab driver this morning asked me if this is my first baby. i told him no, I’m not pregnant. I’m just fat. I’m wearing a size 8 dress. Why do peple do things like this to me? I know it’s vanity, but I can’t even stand to look in the mirror because what I see doesn’t bear any resemblance ot how I am used to seeing myself. My hair is still a mess, Because of it, I’m incredibly self conscious and I have no confidence in myself at work. I don’t even want to get out of bed in the morning and to be pefectly honest, if were to fall asleep and not wake up, it would be a relief. Not having my mother to talk to makes it even worse. I"m alone and I feel like I want to die. . I just don’t see things getting any better and I’m ashamed to pray about these things because I feel like they are so superficial, but the superficial is really affecting me psychologically. I feel like God is disappointed in me for feeling the way I do.
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After my illness, I suffered a blow to my vanity/appearance in that I had 2 7 inch scars on my back due to surgery (and other little scars), and hair loss from the stress and antibiotics that I had taken, so I know in part how you feel, just remember hair grows back (take some over the counter pills that regrow hair) and weight is also something which you can change. Do not let your physical appearance as it is now affect your emotional well-being. Trust me the feelings go away, especially when you turn to God for help. Pray a lot and go to Church as often as you can to get the eucharist (this will strenghten you).
 
One thing that I have learned is that God actually wants your brokenness. He doesn’t want you to sit there praying “Lord everything is perfect thank you!” no, He wants you to be true and honest. He already knows you inside and out, He knows your heart and He will help you! Be honest with Him! If you are at rock bottom, the good news is the only way you can go is up! Life is precious! God wants us to live it all to the fullest! So give Him your brokenness!!
 
Lord please bless our dear Friend Denise. She is grieving and suffering with great worry and sadness causing health problems. She feels lonely and self conscious and feels she has no confidence and low self esteem.Lord please place Your healing hand upon her and bring her healing emotionally, psychologically, spiritually and physically.Lord please grant Denise strength of faith that she will feel better very soon.Thankyou Lord for hearing our prayers Amen

Eternal God , in whom mercy is endless,
and the treasury of compassion inexhastible ,
look kindly upon us and increase Your mercy in us ,
that in difficult moments we might not despair
nor become despondent , but with great confidence ,
submit ourselves to Your Holy Will ,
which is love and mercy itself . Amen

Memorare (Prayer to Our Lady)
Remember, O most gracious Virgin Mary, that never was it known that anyone who fled to your protection, implored your help, or sought your intercession, was left unaided.
Inspired by this confidence, I fly unto you, O Virgin of virgins, my Mother. To you do I come, before you I stand, sinful and sorrowful. O Mother of the Word Incarnate, despise not my petitions, but in your mercy, hear and answer me. Amen
 
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