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This is the first thread I’ve erected here and I’m amusingly nervous. Bear with me.
So, I’ve been a Buddhist for years now, and feel an ineffable pull towards the Church. It’s incredibly odd; I’ve had a chip on my shoulder about Catholicism for many years, and suddenly I find myself moving towards becoming Catholic. I have no Catholic family members; my mother is a Unitarian, my father is a new age hindu shaman hybrid, one brother is apathetic, one is an evangelical, and one is now a Buddhist as well. This is all way, way outside my comfort zone.
I’m a very solitary person. It’s one of the reasons Buddhism clicked with me; solitude and meditation are two fundamental building blocks of enlightenment. And I almost, almost, followed a solitary path back into Christianity. I had to philosophically slap myself across the face and force myself to realize the necessity of a community.
Due to that, and some overwhelming support by Catholic friends (who all sadly happen to be about two thousand miles away), I’m attending my first Catholic Mass ever this coming Sunday. And I’m very nervous, but also excited.
Like I said, though, this is all way outside my comfort zone. I’ve been reading and studying so much the past few weeks; using a lot of internet resources and podcasts and such. Struggling with myself over certain political issues (especially abortion). Struggling with my own ego and my need to be right. Struggling with a lot! This after the Buddhist path, which emphasizes not struggling about anything!
I’ve taken to praying the holy rosary, and while the general outside view is that it’s similar to mantra meditation, I have to smash that notion into little atoms. It’s mechanically similar, but the fundamental basis (mantra meditation focuses on one’s own consciousness, for the most part, whereas the rosary is intercessionary) is entirely different. It’s also much more humbling.
I suppose I’ll stop rambling now…not sure I had a point to begin with! But here I am, after years of Buddhist practice, accepting the authority of the Petrine office. It’s…a unique experience.
So, I’ve been a Buddhist for years now, and feel an ineffable pull towards the Church. It’s incredibly odd; I’ve had a chip on my shoulder about Catholicism for many years, and suddenly I find myself moving towards becoming Catholic. I have no Catholic family members; my mother is a Unitarian, my father is a new age hindu shaman hybrid, one brother is apathetic, one is an evangelical, and one is now a Buddhist as well. This is all way, way outside my comfort zone.
I’m a very solitary person. It’s one of the reasons Buddhism clicked with me; solitude and meditation are two fundamental building blocks of enlightenment. And I almost, almost, followed a solitary path back into Christianity. I had to philosophically slap myself across the face and force myself to realize the necessity of a community.
Due to that, and some overwhelming support by Catholic friends (who all sadly happen to be about two thousand miles away), I’m attending my first Catholic Mass ever this coming Sunday. And I’m very nervous, but also excited.
Like I said, though, this is all way outside my comfort zone. I’ve been reading and studying so much the past few weeks; using a lot of internet resources and podcasts and such. Struggling with myself over certain political issues (especially abortion). Struggling with my own ego and my need to be right. Struggling with a lot! This after the Buddhist path, which emphasizes not struggling about anything!
I’ve taken to praying the holy rosary, and while the general outside view is that it’s similar to mantra meditation, I have to smash that notion into little atoms. It’s mechanically similar, but the fundamental basis (mantra meditation focuses on one’s own consciousness, for the most part, whereas the rosary is intercessionary) is entirely different. It’s also much more humbling.
I suppose I’ll stop rambling now…not sure I had a point to begin with! But here I am, after years of Buddhist practice, accepting the authority of the Petrine office. It’s…a unique experience.