Our young friend, lately you have been posting often about ‘spiritual envy.’
To be so concerned about this is to be focused on an aspect of spiritual life which is taken care of when you focus, not on this detail, with upon love of God and love of others.
Jesus didn’t ‘sum up’ the commandments to speak of ‘spiritual envy’.
What did He focus on?
Love of God, love of others.
Jesus said in Matthew 25 verses 31-46, when He was describing how He will judge souls, that the criteria He will use is our practical love of others. He said He takes practical, *actual, *help and kindness to others as also being given to Him.
Take the mirror away from your eyes, as you appear to be looking in a spiritual mirror quite often. Put the mirror down as it is only causing you harm. One day perhaps you may need to use it more often but for now it almost seems to panic you, and it certainly seems to confuse you.
You live with your family.
Where and how can you be helpful to members of your family, you brother, your parents.
Your kindnesses to them will be more pleasing to God, and more healthy for you mind and your SOUL, than all your worrying about whether the least thing in your life is a sin.
Do good to others, and trust God. Trust God to love you and lead you aright.
I hope you can do this.
Your intentions are good…and we’re not trying to be hard on you.
We want to help, but buying into your fears isn’t helpful.
May God who you love, lead you and guide you as you place your trust in Him.