This is very interesting. This is one of the primary reasons why i have a hard time witht he Catholic faith, but im still trying to learn. I was raised Catholic, and supposedly we are Baptized by the Holy Spirit at confirmation, and baptism at birth cleanses us of our original sin.
That original sin is represented by the curtain in the Jewish temple between the altar and the Holy of Holies. It seperates us from God. If infant baptism and confirmation do what it claims to do, then when we are baptized and confirmed we should recieve the Holy Spirit, our sinful nature would be cut away, and we would have a relationship with God the Father through Jesus Christ and His Holy Spirit. However, i was baptized and confirmed, and i went on doing VERY bad things. Drugs and partying and all that. My entire life, i knew there was a God, but i didnt know God, and i certainly didnt have a personal relationship with Him. Also my entire life, I felt an emptiness, i wasnt complete, i wasnt fulfilled, and i was looking for all kinds of things in this world to fill that void. Drugs brought me to a very low place. And when i was in rehab i had a “moment of clarity” where i realized i was filthy, and i was wrethched, and guilty, and i needed help. I felt moved to pray, so i prayed and asked God for help.I couldnt help but cry it was so amazing and beautiful. I like…knew i was kneeling in God’s presense. At that time i had a powerful experience. Im not going to go into details, but i felt like God reached inside me and touched my heart. I havent been the same since. I wont go into much more detail, but Praise God! I am greatful that God came to me in this way, i dont think i could ever be the same. I tried bringing this to a Priest at my Church(which is Catholic) and he basically said I had a conversion experience. But let me tell you, i dont think i was a Christian by Infant Baptism or Confirmation, or maybe i was and didnt know it. Why is this so hard to believe anyway. Didnt Peter and the disciples have a powerful experience at Pentecost? What about Saul on the road to Damascus. Jesus said you must be born again, or born of the Spirit. I think that true Spiritual birth is when we are baptized by the Holy Spirit. Original Sin, seperates us from God, by being seperated from God we are dead. Until that Original Sin is cut away, i believe we are still dead in our sin, because we are seperated from God. Until we are Baptized by the Holy Spirit, until we are Born Again, we are not really Christians. Someone please e mail me if I am wrong.
As of now i dont understand or agree with everything the Catholic Church teaches, but i am trying to be open minded and trying to learn. Can anyone relate to me, have i said anythign that is not true? please e mail me.
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Gods peace be with you all.
~Matt