Antonius, I’m sorry that this is causing you so much anguish

it’s interesting that I’ve felt similarly however for the opposite reason, - I found it difficult to be Catholic at first because of the OF. lol

but I think trusting in the Church more helps to have more peace. Think of all the horrible things that are going on today… lack of catechesis, many Catholics disagreeing with Catholic teachings, the Masses that focus on “creativity” rather than reverence for God… the ignorance of the wonderful Catholic devotions out there… In my experience, the EF parishes that I’ve been to - are very different. Maybe the Pope wants to increase them, in order to help reform the OF and the rest of Catholicism in the West. Try to see this as being for the good.

don’t focus so much on whether your research has been right, or wrong, - IF it was wrong, that only shows our human weakness

let that draw you closer to God, who is our strength, rather than further away. I read a quote by St Padre Pio that said that humility is to recognize our abjection, but a deeper humility is to love it. That is very difficult. But if you feel like you’ve been wrong, - let that simply humble you, and help in your sanctification. I’m not saying that you’re wrong btw. I don’t know. But don’t let this draw you from the Church.
Remember that VII never “invalidated” the Latin Mass, - even if it needed a few little changes, it didn’t need SOOO many changes that now we have “rock Masses” and all the rest. Maybe it needed more responses from the people, things like that. In VII documents, it even talks about still using Latin, Gregorian chant, etc. But see how too much was changed after the Council. Maybe it could be that the the EF is actually closer to the Mass that VII intended, than the OF? that would be ironic, but who knows it could be. So maybe that is why it should be here now. In addition, - like I said the EF was never abrogated. It’s still a valid form of the Mass, and always was.
Maybe with time, the little changes the VII wanted would be introduced into the EF and there, we’ll have the “true VII” Mass. Or, the OF would be changed to be more reverent and more like the EF, also giving the same result: what the Council intended. It could be that with all the changes, we simply went too far… **and if we make a mistake along the road, the right thing to do is to return to the place before making the mistake, and go again from there? ** I think that’s what CS Lewis once said
Keep in mind that the “traditionalists” are also trying to help the Church… they are not the enemies. The real enemy is secularism, liberalism, and relativism. (and the people who follow that, well hopefully they will come into the Church also).
Um, part of the answer is that the OF as very often experienced in the last 40 years was NOT what Vatican II intended. Read the documents. Vatican II specifically called for Gregorian Chant to retain pride of place and for the PEOPLE (you and me) to be able to say, IN LATIN, those parts of the Mass which were for the people’s response. There was NOTHING in the documents about CITH, removing the altar rails, celebrating facing the people, everybody standing round the altar, and above all, nothing about "now everything has to be In English and we can add, or subtract, or paraphrase to suit the congregation and/or the priest’s ideas of what is MEANINGFUL.’
nobody is trying to ‘take away the OF’. The so-called ‘hybrid’ is simply the restoration of what the OF was originally meant to be: Mass with parts in the vernacular, with Gregorian chant in pride of place, music which is sacred in character, and active participation by the people in the vernacular for where the People’s parts were to be in the vernacular, and IN LATIN where they were to be in Latin: say the Red and do the Black, no ‘additions’ or ‘subtractions’.

I agree.