LaughingBoy1503
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So, I bought a money order and the agency that I made it out to says they have no record of cashing it so I called the company that sold me the money order and a lady with a messed up sounding attitude told me to fill out the form on the back of my customers copy, make out a check for $18 and mail it in and I will get a photo copy of the cashed money order so I can see who cashed it. So I did what she told me but instead I just got a form back from the money order company in the mail as if I wanted a refund. The lady told me I would get a photo copy of the cashed money order.
So I called again today and this same lady with a messed up attitude told said she cant give me information about what was going on with this money order because I made the money order out in my Grandmothers name. I was paying her property taxes. She is 84 years old and basically like a little girl again, she does not even know she has property taxes to pay so its no use to ask her to ask for the information. It would only cause her to get stressed out. So I asked to speak to a manager and she told me that she was the manager. So I did lose my cool (which I know was wrong) and this is what I said
“You know, you have a messed up attitude. You are going to make me go down to your office. You know what, but if you are the manager I guess there is nothing I can do about this anyway.” and then I hung up. I was thinking that I should go down to the office to see if I can be better helped in person and maybe talk to another person. I know that sometimes over the phone people claim to be the manager when they are not. But I figured that if she really is the manager there is nothing I can really do. I cant go over her head easily and I do not want to deal with this anymore, I decided after I hung up that I just will take the loss. It is my fault for writing the money order in my Grandmothers name instead of my own. I already re- paid my Grandmothers property taxes online.
I am now extremely worried that the lady I talked to might say I threatened her by what I said. I know I did not threaten her but given that she does not sound very nice to begin with I am worried she might say I did just for the heck of it because “You are going to make me go down to your office” sounds threatening. I realized this after I hung up. I did also say “but if you are the manager there is nothing I can do anyways” but I am worried that if the conversation was recorded she might even cut out that part somehow lol. I know I sound paranoid but I can be a paranoid person sometimes.
Please say a prayer for me that I will calm down about this. I know I cant be arrested because I did not make a threat. That is what my common sense and reasoning says. But my irrational side says “This lady is going to make a big deal about this and call the police and they are going to visit you someday soon and you may be taken in for questioning and maybe she might even lie and you will get arrested and have to bail out and lose a lot of money and miss a lot of work fighting a case for something you did not do.” I have just gotten over religious scrupulosity with the help of a spiritual director, but I have OCD and it shows itself in other ways like not being able to stop obsessing over things like this. Please pay that I can calm down and not lost sleep over this. I remember once a teacher of mine said I threatened her in high school but I did not. I said that she was treating me unfair and that I was going to do something about it by going to the principal, but she left out the part about me going to the principal in her story
It happened almost 20 years ago but it came to my mind is that this lady I talked to today can maybe do the same thing. What makes the matter worse is that I look like a scary guy sometimes so I can picture someone that does not know me just instantly believing that I probably would be guilty of something like this 
Thank you for your prayers. I will be more careful what I say in the future. I hope this all feels like a bad dream tomorrow.
So I called again today and this same lady with a messed up attitude told said she cant give me information about what was going on with this money order because I made the money order out in my Grandmothers name. I was paying her property taxes. She is 84 years old and basically like a little girl again, she does not even know she has property taxes to pay so its no use to ask her to ask for the information. It would only cause her to get stressed out. So I asked to speak to a manager and she told me that she was the manager. So I did lose my cool (which I know was wrong) and this is what I said
“You know, you have a messed up attitude. You are going to make me go down to your office. You know what, but if you are the manager I guess there is nothing I can do about this anyway.” and then I hung up. I was thinking that I should go down to the office to see if I can be better helped in person and maybe talk to another person. I know that sometimes over the phone people claim to be the manager when they are not. But I figured that if she really is the manager there is nothing I can really do. I cant go over her head easily and I do not want to deal with this anymore, I decided after I hung up that I just will take the loss. It is my fault for writing the money order in my Grandmothers name instead of my own. I already re- paid my Grandmothers property taxes online.
I am now extremely worried that the lady I talked to might say I threatened her by what I said. I know I did not threaten her but given that she does not sound very nice to begin with I am worried she might say I did just for the heck of it because “You are going to make me go down to your office” sounds threatening. I realized this after I hung up. I did also say “but if you are the manager there is nothing I can do anyways” but I am worried that if the conversation was recorded she might even cut out that part somehow lol. I know I sound paranoid but I can be a paranoid person sometimes.
Please say a prayer for me that I will calm down about this. I know I cant be arrested because I did not make a threat. That is what my common sense and reasoning says. But my irrational side says “This lady is going to make a big deal about this and call the police and they are going to visit you someday soon and you may be taken in for questioning and maybe she might even lie and you will get arrested and have to bail out and lose a lot of money and miss a lot of work fighting a case for something you did not do.” I have just gotten over religious scrupulosity with the help of a spiritual director, but I have OCD and it shows itself in other ways like not being able to stop obsessing over things like this. Please pay that I can calm down and not lost sleep over this. I remember once a teacher of mine said I threatened her in high school but I did not. I said that she was treating me unfair and that I was going to do something about it by going to the principal, but she left out the part about me going to the principal in her story
It happened almost 20 years ago but it came to my mind is that this lady I talked to today can maybe do the same thing. What makes the matter worse is that I look like a scary guy sometimes so I can picture someone that does not know me just instantly believing that I probably would be guilty of something like this Thank you for your prayers. I will be more careful what I say in the future. I hope this all feels like a bad dream tomorrow.
