Failures as a Humble Knight of Christ

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I have been reading the Imitation of Christ. Thomas makes humility seem so easy, but it is not for me. I have tried to be humble, but everytime I try to be, I always become prideful. Any advice or prayers?

 

[Sandi]

Maybe a chuckle over the irony of it will help put it perspective?

 

[Image_of_God]

Maybe a chuckle over the irony of it will help put it perspective?

What? Irony? Where?

 

[mommyof4]

I have been reading the Imitation of Christ. Thomas makes humility seem so easy, but it is not for me. I have tried to be humble, but everytime I try to be, I always become prideful. Any advice or prayers?

Pray, pray, pray, pray, and pray for humility. It ain’t easy. The minute I think, “Hey, I’m being humble about this!” my mind yells at me SPIRTUAL PRIDE!!! I’ll let you know when I achieve total humilty, and share the secret with you. Of course, you will probably be a very old grandparent by that time, and I will be a dottering old woman.

 

[Image_of_God]

Pray, pray, pray, pray, and pray for humility. It ain’t easy. The minute I think, “Hey, I’m being humble about this!” my mind yells at me SPIRTUAL PRIDE!!! I’ll let you know when I achieve total humilty, and share the secret with you. Of course, you will probably be a very old grandparent by that time, and I will be a dottering old woman.

I have prayed. I have prayed the Litany of Humilty continuiously. I have begged Christ to free me from my arrogant spirit, but to know avail. He doesn’t want to listen to me. Maybe he does not want me to be saved. I have continued to indulge in haughtiness, and yet I have not yet reached even the slightest degree of humility. Maybe I should just be “cool” and forget about trying to reach God since he does not care! Why does he let me behave like such a monster? Why does he let me laugh at others when they ask questions? Why? Why does he let me pick on others or take pride in my own knowledge. I will have to give up, since Jesus does not want to talk to me.
Maybe I am just to obselete for him. I go through spiritual pain and sadness, because he would not talk to me. Maybe I am to into it. Maybe I am just to “obselete” for the new world. Maybe I should just start to try to be popular and try to fit in with the other boys in my class.

I am sorry, I am not trying to be mean to anyone, not even Jesus. I am sorry if I come off a little bit hard, I am just very stressed out.

 

[mommyof4]

My dear friend, you sound like you are having a bout with some scrupulocity. We are not made into saints in a few months or even a few years. It takes a lifetime to achive holiness and humility. Stick with Jesus. Stick with the sacraments. Calm down, and just let the Holy Spirt do his work in you. I’m sure that he has great plans for you. Just trust him.

Now…to take my own advise…

 

[Image_of_God]

My dear friend, you sound like you are having a bout with some scrupulocity. We are not made into saints in a few months or even a few years. It takes a lifetime to achive holiness and humility. Stick with Jesus. Stick with the sacraments. Calm down, and just let the Holy Spirt do his work in you. I’m sure that he has great plans for you. Just trust him.

Now…to take my own advise…

I don’t think I am scrupulocity. I just desire so much for God to here me. But, he doesn’t to be listening up there. I think I should just become a lax person like that rest of the people in my class. It would be easier. But, I can’t! There is that nagging in my heart that tells me to be different, in spite of everything. Yet, I feel as though I am decieving myself. Maybe I would be better off fitting in with the popular crew. The ones that I shyed away from to go pray. I can see them talking with each other, while I do nothing. Some of them even laugh at me. Many times, I have to cover up my religious books just so they would not laugh at me, or think I am too “unmanly.” It seems to be better to be like them. I can see the Spirit in my life working, I think, but I can’t seem him working in me. There are so many interior disasters going on inside me.

I can’t talk to my family about it because they will laugh at me and my parents would think I am crazy.

 

[Image_of_God]

My dear friend, you sound like you are having a bout with some scrupulocity. We are not made into saints in a few months or even a few years. It takes a lifetime to achive holiness and humility. Stick with Jesus. Stick with the sacraments. Calm down, and just let the Holy Spirt do his work in you. I’m sure that he has great plans for you. Just trust him.

Now…to take my own advise…

Besides, I cannot take the Sacraments. I am in Mortal Sin. And there is nothing I can do about it. I cannot go to confession. I cannot be contrite. I cannot repent. I cannot be changed, it is impossible. But, then again, there is a part of me that desires to take in the Eucharist again. But, I don’t see it happening.

 

[mommyof4]

Besides, I cannot take the Sacraments. I am in Mortal Sin. And there is nothing I can do about it. I cannot go to confession. I cannot be contrite. I cannot repent. I cannot be changed, it is impossible. But, then again, there is a part of me that desires to take in the Eucharist again. But, I don’t see it happening.

Why can’t you go to confession?

 

[Image_of_God]

With all the concern born within me, I just realized that this is in the wrong forum!

 

[Mintaka]

Humility is very difficult to achieve, yes. But sometimes it’s easier to get to a virtue by focusing on other things. Do humble things and just treat it like it’s no big deal; make it part of your routine. Focus on what you can do for others. Focus on God. If you focus on everything else outside yourself and on loving others, you will tend to grow in humility as you go.

Of course, you will probably never be satisfied. But you will be humble enough to know that it’s a process.

To say it differently – lean on God, and you’ll see everything, including yourself, in the proper perspective.

 

[Mintaka]

And if you can’t go to Confession at the moment, work on your Perfect Contrition.

 

[cheeto1]

You don’t sound too proud to me. You are afraid of the
“popular” boys. You want to be popular too, so you go
and pray and just tell yourself you are better than they, and
then try to prove it sometimes by showing your superior
intellect. You are not better than they. God loves every
one of them as much as He loves you, there is nothing
you can do to change that, no matter how much you pray
or read religious books. Don’t look down on people for
being popular or “cool”. But also don’t worry about what
they think of you, worry about what God thinks of you.
Not one of those boys can get you to heaven, even if you
were to convince them you were the coolest guy that ever
lived. The fear of God is the beginning of wisdom. When
you fear God’s opinion more than that of others, you will
have power to reach out in friendship to others instead of
fearing them. That’s what God does for people, and that’s
what He will do for you. Social skills take practice, go
easy on yourself. You were very humble to come here,
asking for help.

 

[littleone]

Why can’t you go to confession?

There is NO reason why you can’t go to confession , there is no reason why you can’t get out of sin. That is other than you refuse to , you don’t want to , you are tied into a situation that suits you, and or you enjoy the situation you are in.

There is a difference between God’s TRUTH that setts yo free and satans reality that you are free. The same way that there is a difference between the wearing the armour of God (Ephthesians 6) and not wanting to where it because the sin is enjoyable.
Brother/sister we cannot play around with God either you love Him or you don’t. God will never let ou down God will never give you too much but God will never take from you your free will.

Be strong you can do it. we all have to some extent had to do it(let go of our flesh)

God bless you
littleone.

 

[cheeto1]

One time when I was scared to go to confession, I took a
little baby Jesus with me in my pocket. He knows what it’s
like to feel helpless. When I felt scared, I put my hand in my
pocket to feel for little baby Jesus and I knew that He was
with me, helping me all the way. You’ve got to go, no matter
how scared you are, if you die, it will be too late, and you
will have to be scared for the rest of your life, and it will be
eternity. Maybe taking baby Jesus with you would work for
you too. Godspeed…

 

[littleone]

One time when I was scared to go to confession, I took a
little baby Jesus with me in my pocket. He knows what it’s
like to feel helpless. When I felt scared, I put my hand in my
pocket to feel for little baby Jesus and I knew that He was
with me, helping me all the way. You’ve got to go, no matter
how scared you are, if you die, it will be too late, and you
will have to be scared for the rest of your life, and it will be
eternity. Maybe taking baby Jesus with you would work for
you too. Godspeed…

God bless you keep it up youcan do it we are all prying for strength for you.
Jesus loves you.

littleone

 

[Mordocai]

Humility is recognition of who you are.
And Who God Is.

Realize that at any moment, God could allow you to hear His voice thundering in your ears. That would humble you, but in His mercy, He doesn’t.

First is last, last is first.
Humility is wanting to be at the back of the train to ensure that the rest of the cars make it to their destination.

No, it’s not easy to be humble. And you’re hearing this from a very prideful person.
I think pride says "Ok God, just give me what I need, and I’ll do all the work.
Humility says “Ok God, I’m just a speck of dust on camel dung in the middle of an arab desert buried 20 feet below surface in a locked chest which no one will ever find. And you still love me? Thank you.”

Humility is being able to enjoy everything you do, say and think with God. If we can’t enjoy everything we do with God, I do not think we are humble.

Just some thoughts
God Bless you
Mordocai

 

[Image_of_God]

Thank you all for the replies, I will most certainly reflect on them. But, I just decided not to go with the popular people.

 

[fin]

ive read Imitation too , though not thoroughly. I have problems with humility too, and like you, I also recite LItany of Humility, lately not everyday, but ive recited it everyday sometime now.
i continue to seek approval of others, even though i shouldn’t and it annoys me when i still strive to , i still have that desire in me to be liked.