Long story, been here and there a bit. Short version, 56 year old cradle Catholic, active except for a few years’ hiatus starting during college.
Not “without a doubt” though. I have so much to say that I don’t know where to start.
For short, though, “doubt” has become a component of my faith. I cannot have one without the other, any more than I know “happy” without knowing “unhappy”. I don’t even know how I can honestly claim to ever be a “believer” in something that is so far above my understanding that I can’t really even grasp what I claim to be believing!
Plus, if I deny my doubts, or sweep them under a rug, then I will forever remain lukewarm, as the kind God “spits out of His mouth” and just go on living as a piece of flesh with an ego, pretending I have zero doubts about something I actually do have doubts about, or at least some serious questions or concerns. Basically a walking phony, bringing power to the forces of falsehood.
So I not only embrace my doubts, I investigate them. A few weeks ago I told him I doubted that we really need to actually believe anything in the creed, in order to gain “the kingdom” mentality as Jesus teaches us to – he still hasn’t come up with a solid answer on that.
If I don’t have doubts, then I “know” and don’t need faith. There is a difference between “knowing” something, and “having faith.” If I “know” something, as if by sight or experiment or training, then I don’t need “faith”. So “faith” is what we use as an excuse, if you will, for believing something we can neither see nor prove. If we can see or prove it, then it is a matter of observable fact and not a matter of faith…
But then again, even ‘observable facts’ require faith in the observations and the process. I heard one tv preacher compare faith v belief as opposite sides of a coin – the coin being invalid without both sides. If a starving man comes up the aisle and we place food before him, he can believe all he wants that if he eats it, he will not starve. He can declare up and down that he believes he will be saved if he eats it. But if he never actually takes some and eats, he will starve – he has to act on his belief using faith.
Heb 11:1, NABRE:
Faith is the realization of what is hoped for and evidence of things not seen.
Heb 11:1, Douay-Rheims
Now faith is the substance of things to be hoped for, the evidence of things that appear not.