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morningmare
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Ooh, this is my first post, :bounce:
So, I’ve been praying for something that I really long for, for last few weeks? months? Almost every night. It had ups and downs, and but over all things were going in the right way, lots of thanks to God, and the saints prayed for me. So I didn’t have much of doubt what I have asked for so far would be fulfilled. I mean he gave me the courage to try things that I thought I almost gave up on, and I believed he will take care of me till the end of it if I believe in him and be very co-operative. I mean Jesus did say if we have faith even as small as a dirt, we can do anything… and whatever we ask will be heard and done.
But few days ago, something happened, and my heart just started to refuse to believe in my own prayer. I don’t even know what happened. There was no failure or anything. I’m yet to see the final outcome of it! Maybe someone gave me the “what if’s” kind of “realisation”. There was no “What if’s” till now in my head. God seemed to have me prepared for what I had been asking for so far, things were so smooth… Then I just started to think… What if I’m praying things in the air. What I so far thought as God’s voice (no, I’m not hearing things- I mean the way my mind moves while I’m praying, I always gave God the credit…), is it just me putting words in God’s mouth? In fact, does God even exist in the world? Is this a sin to even think that? Also was it a sin to think how my mind had moved, and how things were so appropriately there for me to achieve my goal were God’s work?
thanks!
Also, I think I’m losing patience and faith little by little, please pray for me
So, I’ve been praying for something that I really long for, for last few weeks? months? Almost every night. It had ups and downs, and but over all things were going in the right way, lots of thanks to God, and the saints prayed for me. So I didn’t have much of doubt what I have asked for so far would be fulfilled. I mean he gave me the courage to try things that I thought I almost gave up on, and I believed he will take care of me till the end of it if I believe in him and be very co-operative. I mean Jesus did say if we have faith even as small as a dirt, we can do anything… and whatever we ask will be heard and done.
But few days ago, something happened, and my heart just started to refuse to believe in my own prayer. I don’t even know what happened. There was no failure or anything. I’m yet to see the final outcome of it! Maybe someone gave me the “what if’s” kind of “realisation”. There was no “What if’s” till now in my head. God seemed to have me prepared for what I had been asking for so far, things were so smooth… Then I just started to think… What if I’m praying things in the air. What I so far thought as God’s voice (no, I’m not hearing things- I mean the way my mind moves while I’m praying, I always gave God the credit…), is it just me putting words in God’s mouth? In fact, does God even exist in the world? Is this a sin to even think that? Also was it a sin to think how my mind had moved, and how things were so appropriately there for me to achieve my goal were God’s work?
thanks!
Also, I think I’m losing patience and faith little by little, please pray for me