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sorely_tempted
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Part 2 of a late night search session… 
At its most fundamental, I just don’t think I have the faith that many of my friends have. I see tons of friends, few/none Catholic, who seem truly blessed and strong in their faith. Me: I simply passively accept what the church says is true. I go to church every week, and confession less than I should, and there is no more commitment. I feel like I’m getting nothing out of my faith, though I know I am highly blessed, simply because I seem to be not having the one thing I want. I’ve prayed for it for the past several years every night, and have had almost nothing in return. Is this a submitting to God’s will thing? I’m very stubborn, it could easily be that, yet I have absolutely no understanding of Gods will. Only once have I felt like things were going right, and then I either, by my sin, or just poor circumstance destroyed that feeling.
Praying does little; I’ve had more luck in the past. Maybe its because I’m in a state of sin (I’m sure my soul’s quite blackened by now), but my entire religious center is just numbed.
Do I even have this faith concept right? Looking above, it kinda looks like I want faith to be blessed… a kind of I scratch your back, you scratch mine thing.
Oh, and sorry if I’m rambling a bit. Its late…
At its most fundamental, I just don’t think I have the faith that many of my friends have. I see tons of friends, few/none Catholic, who seem truly blessed and strong in their faith. Me: I simply passively accept what the church says is true. I go to church every week, and confession less than I should, and there is no more commitment. I feel like I’m getting nothing out of my faith, though I know I am highly blessed, simply because I seem to be not having the one thing I want. I’ve prayed for it for the past several years every night, and have had almost nothing in return. Is this a submitting to God’s will thing? I’m very stubborn, it could easily be that, yet I have absolutely no understanding of Gods will. Only once have I felt like things were going right, and then I either, by my sin, or just poor circumstance destroyed that feeling.
Praying does little; I’ve had more luck in the past. Maybe its because I’m in a state of sin (I’m sure my soul’s quite blackened by now), but my entire religious center is just numbed.
Do I even have this faith concept right? Looking above, it kinda looks like I want faith to be blessed… a kind of I scratch your back, you scratch mine thing.
Oh, and sorry if I’m rambling a bit. Its late…