That’s perfectly understandable, GIMJ.
How have your family and friends reacted to your process?
Several years ago, I decided it was time for me to start devoutly practicing my Mormonism. I started studying the LDS scriptures and writings of the prophets in great detail. I’ve always been a history buff, so naturally I applied that interest to my religion. I began reading a history book published by the Church for use in institute (seminary for college students). I soaked it all up with great enthusiasm. However, in my reading, I came up with a lot of questions, particularly when it came to the consistency of Church doctrines. When I went to my church leaders to get more information, they turned me away. Many reacted with hostility. When I first began raising my questions, I thought I had been confused or that some of the books had been poorly edited. As I continued my personal studies, however, I realized that it was not me or the editors who had been mistaken:
The Church had lied!
Internalizing all this was very hard, and I finally “snapped.” Instead of trying to reconcile my beliefs with the facts, I became very agressive in trying to convince my friends and family that we had all been duped. That, of course, backfired. Fortunately, I was able to mature over this issue, and instead of trying to disprove Mormonism, I began trying to find THE TRUTH for myself. With the help of the Holy Spirit, I reasoned my way toward faith in Jesus Christ and His Church: the Catholic Church.
Because of the way things backfired several years ago, I no longer discuss my religion with my family or my Mormon friends. Especially since the Mormon church is so bitterly anti-Catholic, I don’t think it’s wise to force them to confront my conversion.
That said, I make no secret of what I’m doing. I don’t hide my Catechism, RSV: Catholic edition Bible, Catholic Updates, Rosary, parish announcements, etc. Instead of going to them, I’ll allow them to approach me when they feel comfortable.