Good! Me too. It makes me want to die. It is a grace from God. He is also sad when we sin, but He loves us infinitely so what do you expect? He wants us to walk in the Spirit and be Holy and Pure.
I assume you are talking about grave sins here, because you are saying you can’t receive Holy Communion. Or are you just like me, someone who hates all sin so much that you can’t really distinguish between grave and small sins very well because virtually all sins make you want to die?
Try to make a perfect act of contrition and get to Holy Confession as soon as possible. Ask God for peace. I normally keep begging Him because He has been so merciful to me that even small sins weigh heavily on my conscience. I don’t rest easily until He grants me peace. Just say “I love you God, I’m sorry, please grant me peace Lord. Thank you for your grace. Thank you for your love.” and of course in Jesus name.
You can normally get a confession after mass on weekdays. I do this often
God is calling you to a high degree of holiness. You might as well forget about the world and just focus on Him. You probably asked Him for this grace just in different words. He loves you. This is good for your eternity and the eternity of others. Thank Him for the great grace He has given you and next time you are tempted PERSEVERE in prayer until the temptation is over. Do that every time you are tempted. You can not sin and talk to Jesus and our Mother at the same time.
I love you and I salute you
I love your Guardian Angel and I salute your Guardian Angel