Feel like God is calling me back. Advice?

[Evemary]

Hi all. Sorry if this post is long.

I was raised in a (very relaxed) Catholic family. I attended Church most Sunday’s and was baptised and received my first holy communion. I lost interest when I became a teenager and never returned.

I got involved in the New Age movement. I was constantly searching for something, for spiritual satisfaction and every time I thought I found it, nothing felt “right”. Unfortunately I also had strange experiences while I was involved. It felt like I was being spiritually attacked.

Eventually I stopped being involved in the New Age. Strangely I feel like I’m being called back to the Church. Whenever I think of my childhood being in church, I feel peace. I’ve started to read the Bible properly, but I feel nervous about going back on my own. I don’t know why but I feel completely stupid for even getting involved in the New Age. I feel like God is angry at me…

Thank you for reading

 

[Dorothy]

God loves you, and IS calling you back. Pray, and do not be afraid. Make an appointment to see a priest.

 

[Camehome4john6]

I feel like God is angry at me…

If we were perfect Jesus wouldn’t have had to die for our sins. He already planned a way out for you.

What I did when I started coming back (did the protestant thing for 20 years) was to sit at the back of church for Mass (I started with daily Mass because it was less crowded and I could hide in the back better and since everything was spoken instead of sung, I could concentrate on the words) and just experience Mass. That was on and Ash Wednesday. By Holy Thursday I was totally in love and ready for confession so I was able to receive Communion on Easter Sunday… but that’s my journey…your mileage may vary.

Talk to Father. You’ve already made your first communion so in theory you’re just one confession away from fully participating. (Confirmation, correct me if I’m wrong, people, will have to follow RCIA).

Pray, pray, and pray some more. And I’ll send up some for you as well.

 

[Tis_Bearself]

God’s obviously not angry if he’s calling you back. He’s the loving father ready to run to meet you and throw a party for your return, as in the Prodigal Son story.

Here’s Jesus saying c’mon back, join the party!

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Just go back to confession and then keep up your Sunday Mass and daily prayers and all will be well.

It was also the memories I had of childhood that got me to return to active Catholic practice after almost 2 decades of very-relaxed-like-almost-nonexistent Catholic practice.

 

[Mhkc]

I got involved in the New Age movement. I was constantly searching for something, for spiritual satisfaction and every time I thought I found it, nothing felt “right”.

Hear hear. I’m a prodigal return too. I admit the similarity to ur story. I resonate. New age?

I did have a lot to do in Yoga, zen, tao, new age, breathing exercises, psychic energy, channeling, psychology, some therapy too. It kinda seemed helpful,but still over years I repeated larger cycles of old child hood family of origin patterns?

Sound familiar self help kool aid?

I drank it.

I was pluralist, humanist, relativist, skeptic.

However… What I can truly say here in your story that I am paying attention to is the fact that as stubborn as my ego was and my pride… And specifically my arrogance… To understand that as a human being I would need a one steady unchangeable form of Truth to pursue… And all the other New Age practices kept being a moving Target? Does that make any sense?

The reason why articulate this is because it has been devoutly going back to church for 3 months now and studying indepthly all the catechisms I can find an am an Ardent and passionate follower of the teachings of Archbishop Fulton Sheen that are available on YouTube…

What I can truly say here in your story that I am paying attention to is the fact that as stubborn as my ego was and my pride… And specifically my arrogance… To understand that as a human being I would need a one steady unchanged form of Truth to pursue… I found out the very very hard way.

And all the other new age practices kept being a moving Target? Does that make any sense?

There are several things that kept feeding a sort of existential nihilist take meaninglessness in my life… And it was ultimately my inability to surrender myself to the fact that I need… Not want… But I need God in my life today… alive, relationally, involved…

And even though I have borrowed a lot from the rules of new age from the law of attraction and prospered myself enormously well in terms of physical health and Financial Health, I lagged relationally bad, and had vices of lust… I didn’t put Christ 1st. Now that’s changed.

Anyway will look fwd this thread

 

[TheLittleLady]

I feel like God is angry at me…

Read Luke, chapter 15, where Christ explains to us what rejoicing happens when one who was lost returns home to the Father. What a celebration! Welcome HOME!!

In just the same way, I tell you, there will be rejoicing among the angels of God over one sinner who repents.

So he got up and went back to his father. While he was still a long way off, his father caught sight of him, and was filled with compassion. He ran to his son, embraced him and kissed him.

His son said to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you; I no longer deserve to be called your son.’

But his father ordered his servants, ‘Quickly bring the finest robe and put it on him; put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet. Take the fattened calf and slaughter it. Then let us celebrate with a feast, because this son of mine was dead, and has come to life again; he was lost, and has been found.’ Then the celebration began.

 

[Dan_Defender]

‘God, from whom to be turned away, is to fall: to whom to be turned back, is to rise again: in whom to abide, is to stand firm. God, from whom to go forth, is to die: to whom to return, is to revive: in whom to have our dwelling, is to live. God, whom no one loses, unless deceived: whom no one seeks, unless stirred up: whom no one finds, unless made pure. God, by whom we distinguish good from ill. God, by whom we flee evil, and follow good. God, who leads us to the door of life. God, who causes it to be opened to them that knock. God, who gives us the bread of life. God, who cleanses us, and prepares us for Divine rewards, come graciously to me.’ - St Augustine

 

[Justin_Mary]

I feel like God is angry at me…

What father does not reprimand his son? As long as he isn’t abusing you, learn, move forward.

In addition to talking to your priest, download iBreviary & start praying morning prayer. It will help you understand God & yourself in relation to God.

 

[Tis_Bearself]

What father does not reprimand his son? As long as he isn’t abusing you, learn, move forward.

God doesn’t “reprimand” returning, repentant followers of him. He greets them with an outpouring of loving kindness and mercy, as shown in Scripture.
And God never abuses anybody.

 

[Cor_ad_Cor]

Talk to Father. You’ve already made your first communion so in theory you’re just one confession away from fully participating. (Confirmation, correct me if I’m wrong, people, will have to follow RCIA).

No “in theory” needed. There may be some catch-up catechesis that would be well advised. The OP should inquire about confirmation, but RCIA is not the best path to that as the OP is already Catholic.

 

[OurLadyofSorrows]

Eventually I stopped being involved in the New Age. Strangely I feel like I’m being called back to the Church. Whenever I think of my childhood being in church, I feel peace. I’ve started to read the Bible properly, but I feel nervous about going back on my own. I don’t know why but I feel completely stupid for even getting involved in the New Age. I feel like God is angry at me…

Welcome home. Bishop Barron says our souls are wired to God. We seek God, and if we reject God, we still seek.

All you need do is attend confession, ask God forgiveness in Confession, and start living the Catholic life. Speak to the Priest there about Confirmation if you do not already have this Sacrament.

The new age is part of the occult. It is cleverly disguised, by the father of lies, as innocent , harmless, gentle , earth and peace loving. Many have trodden your path. We are all sinners.

The beautiful thing is the Church offers Reconcilliation with God in the sacrament of Confession.

 

[Mhkc]

@Evemary how r u?

 

[Chistian-ity]

I feel like God is angry at me…

Ever heard of the prodigal son? (Luke 15:11-32) that was you. in it, a son doesn’t see what he has and wanders astray. Things don’t end up so well and he ends up in complete destitution. Finally he decides to return to the father, feeling completely unworthy. The response he gets is “‘My son,’ the father said, ‘you are always with me, and everything I have is yours.’”

 

[JoeShlabotnik]

Come on back home.

 

[TryingToBelieve]

No “in theory” needed. There may be some catch-up catechesis that would be well advised. The OP should inquire about confirmation, but RCIA is not the best path to that as the OP is already Catholic.

Some parishes might like mine did. I didn’t have to go through the whole process but I found I liked to go to the weekly meetings. Either way I would go find out.