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I’m afraid I’ve lost my way and don’t know how to pick up the pieces. The best way to describe my current state is that of ‘brokenness’.

I am very much in love with a man who is not in love with me. This is complicated by the fact that he is my best friend and that we dated (albeit briefly) three years ago and I still to this day have not given up the hope that he would wake up and realise that I’m amazing and that he wants to spend the rest of his life with me. I hear myself acknowledging the truth but every inch of me wants to reject that horrible feeling of defeat. There is a deep love and attraction for each other, but he would rather keep me in his life as a friend than ruin another relationship (his words). I thought for the longest time that I was OK with this but I’m not. I want to be in an exclusive relationship with him but that’s not going to be our reality.My rational mind understands this, but my emotional mind still clings to a fairy tale ending with him. He’s recently met someone and it’s getting serious. He’s already talking about marriage with her. The pain I feel at times is overwhelming and I feel very depressed and abandoned.

I also lost my grandmother three weeks ago. I was able to fly home and spend some time with her before she passed (which I am eternally grateful for) but her death has hit me very hard. We were very close and I miss her deeply, especially since returning back to where I live (I live abroad). She was my rock and was a source of unconditional love and support.

I am feeling so abandoned and alone right now; I would really appreciate any prayers to help me with my anxiety and deep sadness. Thanks and God bless.
 
Natty, my sympathy for your double loss, of your grandmother, may God comfort you;
and of the dream you had.
I wish the man had been more direct and honestly said though he liked you he didn’t see you as a life partner instead of using euphemisms like 'not spoiling our friendship". Sometimes people try to protect us from the full truth so we keep hoping. It’s a mistake not to be honest, more comfortable for the other person, but unhelpful.

At the moment you are hurting too much to feel that he has now freed you ,
to find yourself and to find someone who loves and chooses you.
God please grant that it will be so.
The dream you had wasn’t real,
but may God give you the reality of mutual love and faithfulness.

Loving God please hold Natty in Your merciful love and help her to find and live the ‘dream’ You have for her, and for her life.
 
God be with you and Peace be with you! Strong more and you will see the life is so beautiful. Pray for you 🙂
 
May Our Lord give you His peace and may He grace you with an awareness of His presence in your life.

Jesus, Prince of Peace. We trust in You!
 
Eternal rest grant unto natty’s grandmother, O Lord. And let perpetual light shine upon her.
May she rest in peace.
Amen.

Praying for you too …
 
God, grant me the
Serenity
to accept the things I cannot change, the
Courage
to change the things I can, and the
Wisdom
to know the difference.
 
Lord, please grant a peaceful rest to Natty’s grandmother and an increase of faith, hope and charity for Natty. May Natty turn to you in prayer in her sadness and anxiety and find in you her best friend and most dearest love. May she meditate on your passion and console your sorrowful heart. Your heart was most sad when you were abandoned by your friends and left to die on a cross because of the man’s unfaithfulness. Help Natty to find in this great love of yours an anchor and a refuge for herself. You love her more than anyone else could ever love her … help her to count on your love to rescue her from her problems and desolation. May she be consoled and lifted up in spirit very soon and focus on you and your great love for her, more than on her problems and great losses. Thank you, Lord, for hearing my prayer.
 
God, grant me the
Serenity
to accept the things I cannot change, the
Courage
to change the things I can, and the
Wisdom
to know the difference.
 
I am absolutely blown away by all of your kindness of words and compassion. I feel blessed to have such a wonderful community support me through all this emotional turmoil! Thank you!!! xx
 
God, grant me the
Serenity
to accept the things I cannot change, the
Courage
to change the things I can, and the
Wisdom
to know the difference.
 
Lord, lead natty to that which is Your will for her. Give her the ability to discern what is the right thing to do, even if it seems painful at the time. Shower her with Your Love so that she does not feel the pain of her losses. Give her strength to go on when she feels weak and alone, for You are always there when anyone else fails her. I ask this through the intercession of Your Most Holy Mother, Mary.
 
Lord, lead natty to that which is Your will for her. Give her the ability to discern what is the right thing to do, even if it seems painful at the time. Shower her with Your Love so that she does not feel the pain of her losses. Give her strength to go on when she feels weak and alone, for You are always there when anyone else fails her. I ask this through the intercession of Your Most Holy Mother, Mary.
 
Hi all,

I told my best friend that I was finding it really difficult being his friend now that he’s in a relationship. I’ve been feeling like talking to him about this for a while but kept putting it off because I was afraid of losing him. He kept asking me to go on a trip with a few people and his gf and I said that I didn’t feel comfortable…eventually I said that I couldn’t because I had feelings for him. I was hoping he would react kindly, but he got angry and said that I “messed everything up…we can’t be friends anymore and you’ve ruined it all, it’s all your fault”…that was just the start of his verbal attack on me. I can’t believe I call this man my best friend. I am so heartbroken and sad. Please pray for me xx
 
Our Father, Who art in heaven,
Hallowed be Thy Name.
Thy Kingdom come.
Thy Will be done, on earth as it is in Heaven. Give us this day our daily bread.
And forgive us our trespasses,
as we forgive those who trespass against us.
And lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from evil.

Amen.

Hail Mary,
Full of Grace,
The Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women,
and blessed is the fruit
of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary,
Mother of God,
pray for us sinners now,
and at the hour of death.

Amen.

Glory be to the Father,
and to the Son,
and to the Holy Spirit.
As it was in the beginning,
is now,
and ever shall be,
world without end.

Amen.
 
Praying Lord, that you will comfort natty at this time. Strengthen her to go on each day while she is reeling from her relationship pain. Help her to see what is Your will for her more clearly, and lead her toward it, for surely it is Your desire for her to be happy. Send her loving friends to comfort and cheer her at this time. I ask this through the intercession of Your most Holy Mother, Mary.

God, grant me the
Serenity
to accept the things I cannot change, the
Courage
to change the things I can, and the
Wisdom
to know the difference.
 
Continuing to pray for you, Natty, and entrusting you to Our Lady’s motherly guidance and protection.

Our Lady, Queen of Peace. Intercede for us.
 
My heart goes out to you. I’ll be sure to ask the Blessed Virgin to assist you in the Rosary I’m about to say. God bless.
 
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