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4lilbits
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Last February, I lost my baby at term and almost died myself. I am pregnant again 28 weeks and have had a very stress filled pregnancy, worrying about everything. I now have gestational diabetes and have tried to change my diet but am losing weight. I lost 3 pounds in a week - and i am an underweight person to begin with so i cannot spare these pounds. Feeling overwhelmed because i just can’t win with this pregnancy. every time i think that things will be fine, something comes up that needs to be addressed. my 3 other little children can tell when i am stressed out and become more needy and get on each other’s nerves and it all just wears on me.
my old self (before losing my daughter) would start praying and feel better. now, i don’t feel like i can pray anymore. God just doesn’t hear me. the saints can’t help me either. it is so awful not to be able to go to our Lord and feel peace. i never thought i would feel this way in my faith. after losing our baby, i felt so close to God and peaceful. i really thought that this ordeal would bring me closer to Him and make me a better person, but it has had the opposite affect. i am the furthest away that i have ever been, i am always worrying, ill-tempered, overwhelmed.
thank you
my old self (before losing my daughter) would start praying and feel better. now, i don’t feel like i can pray anymore. God just doesn’t hear me. the saints can’t help me either. it is so awful not to be able to go to our Lord and feel peace. i never thought i would feel this way in my faith. after losing our baby, i felt so close to God and peaceful. i really thought that this ordeal would bring me closer to Him and make me a better person, but it has had the opposite affect. i am the furthest away that i have ever been, i am always worrying, ill-tempered, overwhelmed.
thank you

