I know most people feel this way at some point, but right now I feel that God is not here. I feel inside me that feeling I have when I know He is with me, and I long to feel that but I don’t.
I don’t want to do about it. It’s really upsetting, and I feel that God has given up on me at last. I don’t have anyone in person to talk to about this right now, so thought I would come here.
Yes you are right. Those who God Loves will feel this way. Even the great saints have gone through this so you can see that you are in good company.
The reason you feel so badly is because you recognize that there is no substitute for God. Nothing else satisfies.
The Lost and the weak, when they don’t feel God, fill up their lives with shallow and wasteful things. Those who know God cannot do that for, as it says somewhere in the OT, all is vanity and a chase after the wind", or something like that.
So we seek only God, and when God seems far away it is troubling. But take heart Dear One for God is actually giving you a great gift.
We can liken this time to when a parent is teaching a child to ride a bicycle. the parent holds the seat and helps to balance. The Child feels this and is comforted. Eventually the Parent removes the hand and the Child loses that feeling of support. It is frightening, but the Child must peresevere, do what teh parent taught them to do and this allows them to Grow and to learn. When they fall the paretn picks them up. When they succeed, The Parent is so proud.
As a matter of some practial suggestions:
Do things. I often find that when I don’t feel God near to me, I need to do something. Works of charity, extra prayers or review my pryaer life, examination of conscience…I dunno…Something that shakes me out of my routine. For often times God is asking us to grow nearer to Him and the best way to do that is through Loving our neighbor.
Read inspiring quotes or books Nothing heavy necessarily, I keep a couple of these kinds of things around like Mother Angelica’s Life lessons, and some little paperback books called “Elf Help books”, cutsy but good as well. Like I say, nothing heavy - just something to remind me that God is still here even if I don’t “feel” him.
Peace
James