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maryanthony
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Hi, am a Catholic convert from Hinduism, i am a doctor preparing for my higher studies, i ve been in a couple of bad relationships n i ve been very hurt, i ve been praying for a good husband but all d guys whom i knew only wanted to get close to me physically. I feel abandoned by Mother Mary and i am struggling to achieve acadamically too. Is it wrong for me to wish liie any other girl to have a guy to love? Now my heart is so broken that I never want to be in a relationship again.
But why does God keep sending these wrong guys in my life?
I came to US few months back to write an exam, and a guy who i came to know on d forum was helping me with d exam, after d exam i had to write another exam and do a rotation in a hospital.But after my first exam this guy n me were speaking on skype and I thought he loved me and he went on to speak dirty things to me, i prayed the rosary for help that time to overcome d temptation not to speak wid dat guy but i couldn’t and i continued speaking to him. Y dint Mother Mary help me dat time wen i prayed and asked for help? I was so disturbed by all dat he spoke to me, but i never met him. We used to chat for long hours on skype and also he told he will help me with the other exam so I continued speaking to him.
I have been very hurt, this is the 5th time my heart is been broken. Am still a virgin, am thankful that God protected me from losing my virginity wid any wrong guy but why can’t God also protect me from Guys who will hurt me emotionally, i gradually started liking dis guy and i thought i can change him into a good person now i realised dat he was close wid another gurl d whole time and meanwhile i was so disturbed, i couldn’t write d other exam and dint attend d rotation in d university that i was supposed to and this cost me 1350$ and ihad to return back to India. I feel like a terrible loser, i want a Spiritual director to help me. Pls i have no one to tell all these things to, pls someone who reads, pls send a reply to console ,e am losing my faith and i have an important exam in another month, if i dont write that i will loose another 1000$
But why does God keep sending these wrong guys in my life?
I came to US few months back to write an exam, and a guy who i came to know on d forum was helping me with d exam, after d exam i had to write another exam and do a rotation in a hospital.But after my first exam this guy n me were speaking on skype and I thought he loved me and he went on to speak dirty things to me, i prayed the rosary for help that time to overcome d temptation not to speak wid dat guy but i couldn’t and i continued speaking to him. Y dint Mother Mary help me dat time wen i prayed and asked for help? I was so disturbed by all dat he spoke to me, but i never met him. We used to chat for long hours on skype and also he told he will help me with the other exam so I continued speaking to him.
I have been very hurt, this is the 5th time my heart is been broken. Am still a virgin, am thankful that God protected me from losing my virginity wid any wrong guy but why can’t God also protect me from Guys who will hurt me emotionally, i gradually started liking dis guy and i thought i can change him into a good person now i realised dat he was close wid another gurl d whole time and meanwhile i was so disturbed, i couldn’t write d other exam and dint attend d rotation in d university that i was supposed to and this cost me 1350$ and ihad to return back to India. I feel like a terrible loser, i want a Spiritual director to help me. Pls i have no one to tell all these things to, pls someone who reads, pls send a reply to console ,e am losing my faith and i have an important exam in another month, if i dont write that i will loose another 1000$