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After a wonderful Penance and understanding of all my sins I suddenly fell into a hysterical doubts directly in the post-Penance Mass. Once again, I felt that I did not believe in Christ, I felt again that there is one God without Christ. I again felt that “too much time is devoted to Christ, not the Father,” and thought that sin has gone too far in my mind.
After Mass, I was waiting for the prayer group. Calmed me down only my godmother, she ordered me (for which she is grateful) do not speak on behalf of all the people but on my own opinion and things, that Christ revealed to me today. It really helped me to forget my doubts and just simply once again beat my sin - selfishness.
However, after I once again explained to all the doubts, the feeling that I have betrayed Christ, the feeling that Christ will no longer save me. I know the truth that Christ has revealed to me, and that He is a true Savior and Messiah. My jewish roots and love for them sometimes makes me disparagingly refer to Christ, apparently so.
But it feels like a conversation with parishioners and chat with them great but my Christian life again in great doubt - it’s not clear to me. Maybe these feelings when everything is explained and that it is true, but the feelings are talking about something else, something sinful bad, something NOT clear in my mind. Maybe that’s all we need to survive and give back to God and to recognize that we have sinned in my doubts and just give my mind and soul to God’s power?
After Mass, I was waiting for the prayer group. Calmed me down only my godmother, she ordered me (for which she is grateful) do not speak on behalf of all the people but on my own opinion and things, that Christ revealed to me today. It really helped me to forget my doubts and just simply once again beat my sin - selfishness.
However, after I once again explained to all the doubts, the feeling that I have betrayed Christ, the feeling that Christ will no longer save me. I know the truth that Christ has revealed to me, and that He is a true Savior and Messiah. My jewish roots and love for them sometimes makes me disparagingly refer to Christ, apparently so.
But it feels like a conversation with parishioners and chat with them great but my Christian life again in great doubt - it’s not clear to me. Maybe these feelings when everything is explained and that it is true, but the feelings are talking about something else, something sinful bad, something NOT clear in my mind. Maybe that’s all we need to survive and give back to God and to recognize that we have sinned in my doubts and just give my mind and soul to God’s power?