Thank you everyone who has responded so far!
Quick extra thing - Could you be in prayer on my behalf while I am there? Last Sunday was my first time receiving Holy Eucharist in 7.5 years. I had been to confession the day before and literally all that night and the next morning, all I could think about was how excited I was to receive it. When I got to mass, I was excited, but during the consecration, I had this overwhelming, visceral reaction to it where almost everything in me was screaming not to take it. It took me quite by surprise because for weeks I’ve longed for it, but couldn’t take it until I was able to completely assent to the Church’s authority, which finally came (praise God). So I knew that this reaction didn’t make any sense, but it was very overwhelming. I prayed and invoked the prayers of St Michael and all the saints I could remember (which, granted, wasn’t too many), but I still felt horribly guilty going up. I remembered the words of CS Lewis, which were something along the lines of faith being the ability to hold on to what you believe despite your changing moods, and prayed for mercy from God if I was doing something wrong, but took it. Almost immediately after, all I felt was condemnation that my confession wasn’t “good enough” and it’s caused a lot of turmoil for me this week. I’m hoping that spending some time near the blessed Sacrament will help clear some of that up.