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invisiblewitnes
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Please pray for healing for me from a car accident which I was in over 9 years ago, but was never treated. I was working on singing and vocal work at the time and had become really good, and then was hit while making pulling out to make a left turn where there was low visibility because of a large bush in the way. I had a fractured collarbone, and a concussion. The most traumatic part was that I was knocked into a state of being alone in darkness, alone and by myself with just my thougts, no sensations, and it seemed like it would never end. I literally was panicking, asking myself if I was dead and was in Hell. Eventually I regained consciousness in the hospital while they were X-raying me for fractures. They asked me questions, like the year, and who the president was, and I couldn’t remember anything but my name, which I kind of laughed at when they asked me easy questions and I didn’t know anything. I kind of just went home and missed a couple days of school and work, and never really did anything about it. But I lost my ability to sing as the pain from the fractured collarbone made it difficult to produce the sound required, and the amnesia made me kind of forget who my friends were for a while. And there were speech communication issues, where thing I knew how to communicate I couldn’t. Also, whenever I seemed to attempt to sing or do something, I would get panic and then over this summer I realized that I was having subconscious sort of remembrance of that experience of thinkng I had died and was alone in Hell and that it would never end. The anxiety this caused over this summer put me in such a panic that I broke up a bunch of really good friendships, just because I was having memories of close friends and family die and combining it with my experience of that car accident. So I was very anxious about being close to anyone, fearing something harmful would happen to them. I am seeking medical help, but I want to ask you to pray for the right doctors and psychologists and priests or whoever, who can understand the physical, emotional, mental, spiritual elements of the trauma caused by this car accident and other events relating to death or near death in my life. Also, please pray for healing of the friendships that were severed because of the disorientation caused by untreated trauma from this car accident and other events. I have broken up a lot of good friendships because I do not really think I am a good person to be friends with sometimes. I get to a certain level of friendship and then feel that I am not good for the person or people any more and will only cause pain if it continues any further.
St. John is the patron of friendship I think, if you would like to ask for his intercession. He is also my confirmation patron. I chose him, because he was the disciple whom Jesus loved. Also, please ask for the intercession of St. Edith Stein, whose feast day is on the birthday of two of my best friends, whom I became estranged from. I actually remembered the accident and the horrifying experience of thinking I was in Hell for eternity on their birthday, after I had panicked, and basically drove them away because I was afraid something bad was going to happen to them. I am seeking help from neurologist, psychologists, brain trauma specialists etc. but the fact that I lost their friendship makes it seem almost pointless.
But please pray for me, my family, my friends, my doctors, any teachers, priests, deacons, spiritual directors, etc. who work with me in the future. Please pray for all the people who tried to help me, especially those who did not have the knowledge to do so. It was very frustrating being offered incorrect solutions by people who cared but did not understand the problem.
Grace and peace be with you all.
St. John is the patron of friendship I think, if you would like to ask for his intercession. He is also my confirmation patron. I chose him, because he was the disciple whom Jesus loved. Also, please ask for the intercession of St. Edith Stein, whose feast day is on the birthday of two of my best friends, whom I became estranged from. I actually remembered the accident and the horrifying experience of thinking I was in Hell for eternity on their birthday, after I had panicked, and basically drove them away because I was afraid something bad was going to happen to them. I am seeking help from neurologist, psychologists, brain trauma specialists etc. but the fact that I lost their friendship makes it seem almost pointless.
But please pray for me, my family, my friends, my doctors, any teachers, priests, deacons, spiritual directors, etc. who work with me in the future. Please pray for all the people who tried to help me, especially those who did not have the knowledge to do so. It was very frustrating being offered incorrect solutions by people who cared but did not understand the problem.
Grace and peace be with you all.
