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spangler1982
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Please pray for me for this intense infatuation I’ve developed for this woman who attends daily Mass. I have been attending daily Mass to help me overcome some mental health problems (anxiety, obsessive-compulsive thinking, scrupulosity, etc.) that I’ve been struggling with for quite some time. But there is a woman there who I met through a Young Adult group. She is very friendly to me; and I’ve asked her out, and she has said “O.K.”, but when I call her; she doesn’t return my calls. Prudence tells me that because of all of the anxiety this produces for me, and because of her life’s situation (she has 2 young children from a previous non-sacramental marriage) that this is not a good situation for me, and that I need to let this whole thing go.
But my obsessive mind doesn’t always want to co-operate! I really don’t want to have to stop going to daily Mass, unless it’s God’s will (though I don’t see how it could be!). It’s very difficult for me to concentrate on the Mass when she’s there. She’s so beautiful, and seeing her so reverently take part in the Mass with here eyes fixed on the sanctuary really touches my heart! How I desire to be in that same place spiritually myself. . .
My intelligence tells me that this is really a hunger for more complete union with God. And also that it masks a deeper wound I feel from the many rejections I’ve experienced in my life, especially a recent relationship that ended so painfully. One’s desire to pursue a pure relationship is good in itself; but these obsessive thoughts that can consume me tells me that my desire for a relationship with this woman has become an idol. The pain that I struggle with this can be SO intense! Please pray that I will be truly open to God showing me a pathway that will lead me to a deep and profound union with Him; one that will liberate me from this obsession I’m experiencing.
I remember reading in Blessed Pier Georgio Frasatti’s biography that he had a similar situation in his life.
Thank you all, your prayers have really helped me before.
But my obsessive mind doesn’t always want to co-operate! I really don’t want to have to stop going to daily Mass, unless it’s God’s will (though I don’t see how it could be!). It’s very difficult for me to concentrate on the Mass when she’s there. She’s so beautiful, and seeing her so reverently take part in the Mass with here eyes fixed on the sanctuary really touches my heart! How I desire to be in that same place spiritually myself. . .
My intelligence tells me that this is really a hunger for more complete union with God. And also that it masks a deeper wound I feel from the many rejections I’ve experienced in my life, especially a recent relationship that ended so painfully. One’s desire to pursue a pure relationship is good in itself; but these obsessive thoughts that can consume me tells me that my desire for a relationship with this woman has become an idol. The pain that I struggle with this can be SO intense! Please pray that I will be truly open to God showing me a pathway that will lead me to a deep and profound union with Him; one that will liberate me from this obsession I’m experiencing.
I remember reading in Blessed Pier Georgio Frasatti’s biography that he had a similar situation in his life.
Thank you all, your prayers have really helped me before.
