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I did something today out of folly that has me up late. In my long life of psychiatric incarceration and manipulation and control by husband/mother/parents I have not learned many of the simplest skills in life and judgment. In folly, I took an oath of poverty when I was 24, surrounded by people living free off the fat of society, for good reasons, they were in misery, I was moved and wanted to emulate them. However I was not in contact with reality when I took this vow. As a result I have submitted myself to material starvation throughout my life, afraid to spend a penny on anything I truly needed, wasting ample money that was available on worthless and meaningless things and passing this spending habit on to my son, who is now a man and needs to learn.
So I pray for a release from my vow of poverty, I was not in my right mind, and also for mercy and blessings on a particular woman who is in dire distress tonight which is not my fault but which I could have helped her with and I don’t even know which was the worse folly, trying to help her when I was so weak myself, or running away from the situation as I did. I lift up Michelle for help and healing, and also ask for wisdom and judgment. I am too old to be this stupid.
Also for financial blessings for me and for my son, and for Michelle.
So I pray for a release from my vow of poverty, I was not in my right mind, and also for mercy and blessings on a particular woman who is in dire distress tonight which is not my fault but which I could have helped her with and I don’t even know which was the worse folly, trying to help her when I was so weak myself, or running away from the situation as I did. I lift up Michelle for help and healing, and also ask for wisdom and judgment. I am too old to be this stupid.
Also for financial blessings for me and for my son, and for Michelle.

