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MAN! I sure wish I could have you come and tell your story to a group of bruised/broken/angry fallen away Catholics seeking to reclaim their faith and the mercy of God in His Church! Unfortunately, I do not HAVE such a group, although I have been pumping for it with the Archdeacon (who is my confessor).You comments ring true to some degree. Some of us were hurt …or even abandoned, left for dead so to speak. Some of us were products of mixed religious faiths, something I despirately attempt to direct people away from not only from my parents, relatives, but also from my own personal experience. I saw many Catholics use annulments like it’s a Catholic divorce…as if it is okay and not scandalous. Some of us were victims. If you’ve ever been victimized you’d konw what I mean. When men or women in sacred offices commit awful crimes against the inosent, young inexperienced adults, they commit a grave sin that causes a lot of hardship. I could carry on abou this topic because it is rather personal for me.
There is truth in what you say, but the next question to ask is invincible ignorance and culpability. Sometimes wounds need time to heal and people need time to learn. Whe looking for truth and you get mixed answers it’s often difficult to know what the real truth is in a world bent on pushing their own agenas. It’s a wonder that more people don’t fall away when you look at the intensity of it all. Pride is often overstated. There is an element of self-preservation that must be considered.
It’s true sometimes that the worst of anything is someone from that broke away from that frame of thought. Probably because they’re still fighting internally with what they used to believe. Sometimes its truly ignorant pride and others it is selfish pride. I’m sure someone has terms up their sleeve for what I’m trying to say.
If the pride of the priests I ran into was less than my pride I may never have fallen away from the Church. My biggest lesson that I learned through this heart breaking experience is that we all need to be on guard against the evil one who is out to devour us. Anyone can fall into this pit. But I do believe that if you are truly seeking God you will find him. In my case it lead me back Home and with my wife who proselytized me years ago. The only reason I hand out of these forums is to learn apologetics and help as many Catholics both in and fallen away with what I’ve learned to date. I also look for things I should know.
Being a priest does not necessitate being an “expert”. Some of the dummest people I’ve met were the smartest and/or most educated.
You have been truly graced. I am deeply touched by your line:
If the pride of the priests I ran into was less than my pride I may never have fallen away from the Church.
My experience has largely been with the “noisier” ex-Catholics who rail against the Church from a platform of willful arrogance or obscene ignorance. I am going to print out your post and put it where I can read it until I have absorbed what you have shared and made it my own.
May God reward you for your graciousness here.