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Qoeleth
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Very good question. I myself struggled with belief in God for many years. Even today, I still cannot honestly say I believe things like “God will take care of things”, or “If you pray, God will help you.” But, I am tolerant of those who do.
Eventually, I decided that belief in God was necessary- it was either that or be a nihilist. But even then, I still had (and have) immense troubles believing in a ‘Being’ as such. Perhaps more like an an unknown “X”, beyond existence and non-existence, which is the object of the heart’s desire- forever beyond us, dwelling in the cold, white, inaccessible light of no-thingness. Maybe God is the void. Maybe God is simply the word or idea ‘God’. I don’t know. My apologies for toying with possibly unorthodox ideas. But whatever God ‘is’, I believe in ‘Him’.
But that is where Jesus comes in. It is possible to make a decision to follow the Gospel Law of Jesus- since it is not a proposition, but a set of imperatives and ethical principles. So, Christian ‘belief’ is not so much intellectual consent to a proposition or hypothesis, but a decision to follow the Law of God. “The only way we know God is by keeping the commandments,” as St. John wrote.
So, ‘belief’ is a decision, but it must also be qualified as a ‘quasi-belief’- deciding to act as if something were true, all the while not really ‘knowing’.
The decision in favour of ‘belief’, becomes, in effect, an act of rebellion against the universal meaninglessness.
Eventually, I decided that belief in God was necessary- it was either that or be a nihilist. But even then, I still had (and have) immense troubles believing in a ‘Being’ as such. Perhaps more like an an unknown “X”, beyond existence and non-existence, which is the object of the heart’s desire- forever beyond us, dwelling in the cold, white, inaccessible light of no-thingness. Maybe God is the void. Maybe God is simply the word or idea ‘God’. I don’t know. My apologies for toying with possibly unorthodox ideas. But whatever God ‘is’, I believe in ‘Him’.
But that is where Jesus comes in. It is possible to make a decision to follow the Gospel Law of Jesus- since it is not a proposition, but a set of imperatives and ethical principles. So, Christian ‘belief’ is not so much intellectual consent to a proposition or hypothesis, but a decision to follow the Law of God. “The only way we know God is by keeping the commandments,” as St. John wrote.
So, ‘belief’ is a decision, but it must also be qualified as a ‘quasi-belief’- deciding to act as if something were true, all the while not really ‘knowing’.
The decision in favour of ‘belief’, becomes, in effect, an act of rebellion against the universal meaninglessness.