I’m genuinely interested - is this a circuitous route to ‘and that’s why God does not exist’ or are you angry with God for what you regard as unfair?
Honest question merits an honest answer.

Of ocurse I am not “angry” with God. How could I be? I don’t believe that God exists. I keep wondering about the portrait the believers paint about God. It is so full of contradictions, and I am unable to comprehend that people are actually believe such a self-contradictory concept.
Naturally, I am able to contemplate that this universe of ours (3 spatial and 1 temporal dimensions) is not “all there is”. That we are part of something else, and our “little” universe was created by a being (or beings) in that “greater universe”. I see no need for such a hypothesis, but it would not be impossible. The being (or beings) who created our universe are almost “infinitely” more knowledgeable and capable than we are. Stands to reason, and nothing impossible about it. However, this setup is completely different from the Christian concept of God.
The picture Christianity presents is highly anthropomorphic. Worse is that the picture portrays God partly as a vain, vicious, vengeful, power-hungry, tyrannical being (Old Testament) and partly as a loving, caring being, who wants the best for us (New Testament). (Mind you that God is supposed to be immutable, unchanging.) This is already a confusing picture - mixing the best and worst human characteristics into one being. But the “solution” is simply mind-bogglingly childish. God wants to “redeem” us, by recreating himself in a human form, and sacrifices himself to be able to pardon our “sins” and trespasses. What kind of nonsense is this? Why can’t he simply forgive without going through that charade? Moreover, he does not pardon us unconditionally; there is a string attached. The ones who will be forgiven must obey, love and worship him. (As a bumper sticker said: “Christians are not perfect, just forgiven”). The “vanity” from the OT returns.
Of course, this is just a miniscule portion of all the problems. I probably could write a whole book about my questions. But what would be the point? I like to present one or two little problems and see the result. Let me tell you, the result is depressing. I did present the same problem before in a slightly different fashion, and the answers were diametrically opposite. Not only there is no coherent view presented, the answers keep contradicting themselves.
Just one example: When contemplating the “problem of evil” in a direct fashion, the answers all try to “whitewash” God, by stating that our lack of knowledge prevents us from making a correct assessment, whatever we consider “gratuitous” evil is really just a part of God’s greater plan - there is really no “evil”. We are not privy to that plan, of course - and that is why have this misperception. Everything is hunky-dory, this is the best of the possible worlds, or is on the way to get there… Never mind the fact that it “looks like” evil.
Now, when the problem is presented differently, the existence of evil is not denied, but it is “explained” as a necessary, foreseen but unwanted corollary of “free will”. Of course, this is also a lame excuse. According to the Catholic belief Mary was without sin, and yet she had free will. It is therefore possible to have beings with free will and yet sinless. A world could have been populated by Mary-like beings. If that required a “special” grace, so what? That special grace could have been extended to everyone.
And there is a third kind of “explanation”. God is all-good, he cannot tolerate evil. Yet he allows it, unwanted, but foreseen. This is probably the worst kind of defense. If someone explicitly does not want something, and is able to avoid it, then why would he allow and tolerate it? No one benefits from evil. The people who practice it will forfeit they possibility to get to heaven. The ones who suffer the consequences will experience pain and horror. God does not explicitly
want anyone to suffer, it cannot be “good” for God to see it happen. Why would he allow something that is “bad” for everyone, God himself included?
Poor God is presented as a hapless idiot, who cannot tolerate evil, but since he “omnipresent”, he is surrounded by it - against his wishes. As I said before, nothing I could say about God could possibly be more disrespectful than the assertions of the believers…
I will stop here, don’t want to bore you with more. But let me reiterate. I am not “angry” with God or anyone. If anything, I feel very sorry for those who are unwilling to take a step back, and contemplate these questions without the emotional attachment. It might be quite enlightening to try. The name “Lucifer” is a beautiful one, to bring light into the darkness of unquestioning, blind faith.
I hope I did not offend you or anyone. It was not my intent. But you asked and I answered to the best of my ability. Wishing you the best.
I don’t understand many of God’s ways - but then I’m a human being with human limitations. I know that you will not be satisfied with that answer - but you weren’t satisfied with any other answers that you’ve been offered before either. Maybe it is ‘unanswerable’ to everyone’s satisfaction; in which case it falls into the class of being a mystery.
You are perfectly capable to understand the
human concept about God. And so am I and many others. There is nothing “mysterious” about the picture - it is simply muddy and nonsensical.