OK. First, take a deep breath. Seriously, take a deep breath and hold it for a moment.
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Now let it out slowly like through a straw.
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And repeat.
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OK. So here’s my response to all this: How does this affect you personally?
Are you legally divorced and have now remarried outside the Church?
Has someone in that situation asked for your advice?
Do you think your pastor is “diabolical”?
To whom are you defending the Catholic Church?
Are non-Catholics asking your opinions on Fatima?
Are non-Catholics asking you about proper disposition to receive Holy Communion?
Are non-Catholics asking you if Russia has been properly consecrated?
You are not going crazy, AND there is no crisis in the Church.
There are sinners in the Church. Just as there have always been since the day of the Resurrection. And the gates of hell will not prevail against the Church.
Perhaps you should stick with the Catechism for your reading material and stay away from all that “end times” nonsense. Most likely, every person on this forum will face their personal judgment loooooonnnnngggg before the end of time.
Now go take a walk and enjoy the trees and the sunshine and the fresh air.
Go see a movie – I highly recommend “Spiderman: Homecoming.”
Go to a baseball game with your family.
Have a poker/game night with your friends.
Stop worrying about things over which you have no control. God’s got this.