I’ll detail what I’ve done to try to get an answer from God, I’ve covered it before, but it’s probably hard to dig out in all the threads here.
I’ve prayed for hours on end. That did nothing. I’ve done the rosary, I’ve prayed at church, prayed at home. Nothing. So I started to do more extreme things. I starved myself for days, tried the same thing again, nothing. I starved myself for even longer, an entire week, I only had water, then I prayed. Nothing. So I started to do more extreme things, I went out and simply wandered out onto the street for a few weeks to live homeless. Nothing. I’ve even done drugs, legal and otherwise to attempt to clear my mind or cloud it, or do anything.
If you have any other suggestions on things I haven’t tried yet, I am willing to try more things and I’m not being sarcastic. I really am willing to try just about anything. Yet I’ve yet to feel anything.
I have a suspicion it could be the psych meds I have to take, however, if I go off those I start to cut myself and work out suicide plots, so that’s not very productive either.