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Yogi89
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For the most part, I am a pretty logical and rational person. However, if I think I lost something important I tend to get really paranoid. I feel bad though with the last two times I got paranoid. tonight for example - I didn’t see my purse that I usually carry in my room, and I looked everywhere I could imagine it would be, and checked in my car. No where to be found. I started freaking out because my social security card, driver’s license, debit card and money were all in my purse. I don’t usually carry my social security card in my purse but it was in there today. So, my mom started to help me look for it in my room and I feel bad Bc I kind of seemed like I was accusing my brother in a way for maybe taking it, Bc I said ‘it was in my room, I know it was’ and my mom said ‘who’s going to take it?’ And I didn’t say anything but I know she thinks I mean my brother Bc the last time I lost my car keys I did the same exact thing. My brother used to have a gambling problem and would steal sometimes , not from me but he has stole jewelry from my mom and I think money too but I’m not positive. But, my parents did give him a lot of money before. Anyway, I feel bad Bc I get this feeling maybe he did take it. And, last time my mom found my keys and this time she found my purse right away. And she said ’ you always do this.’ And, I do. I feel bad, especially for thinking it was my brother even for just a second. I wish I didn’t get this way, but as I get older I feel I get more paranoid. Is anyone else like this? What’s the best way to overcome it? I don’t only get paranoid, but I will cuss and I just get so mad/annoyed.