That is an excellent insight I think, i.e., about your relationship with your earthly mother and how it affects your relationship with Mother Mary. I was blessed with a good relationship with my earthly mother and have what I think is a good relationship w/ Mother Mary. However it is my relationship with my father and God the Father where I struggle. In my mind I tend to see a “vision” in Heaven of Mary holding back God’s wrath on me! (I know in my head that God isn’t like that but that is the way I think in my heart and I can’t really help it for now) So recently what I have been doing is, during my Rosary, I have been asking Mother Mary to “introduce” me to God the Father. So maybe if you have a good relationship w/ God the Father (and/or our Lord Jesus Christ), you could pray daily to Him from the heart and ask Him to “introduce” you to Mother Mary!