Hi, I’m Rachael and I am new. Has anyone else been rejected by God? I tried to join a convent but I was invited to leave because I got really anxious. I understand that I could not be a sister but God made me this way, so it isn’t fair. I really wanted to give my life to Him but He doesn’t want it. It seems like God loves the sisters more than me.
Sweetheart :hug3:
Please don’t you dare think that God has rejected you in any way. You simply weren’t a fit for that particular convent. It’s like having one bad relationship with a man and thinking as a result that you’re destined never to be married - it’s more likely that you ARE meant to be married, but perhaps not to that man, or not at that time.
Your first option is to seek appropriate counselling or other treatment for a while for your anxiety and, when you’ve improved, approach them again. They’ll probably be overjoyed to accept you back.
Another option is to look at other convents, there may be others where you would be better suited.
What makes you think God loves nuns more than anyone else? It is a great calling, but so are other callings - being a nurse or a teacher or whatnot. God loves all of us equally, we are all very much his children whether we are nuns or not.
Mary His mother, who He loves more than anyone, certainly wasn’t a nun, but a wife and mother. Mary Magdalene and Martha, two other women who were extremely close to Him, weren’t nuns either.
There are great saints, such as St Catherine of Siena, St Rose of Lima and St Benedict Joseph Labre, who sought to enter religious life but for one reason or another were unable to do so. Pray to them to help you, for they surely understand your frustrations.
There are others, such as St Monica (mother of St Augustine) and Blessed Zelie Martin (mother of St Therese of Lisieux) who were wives and mothers and found great holiness in their family life - even inspired their children to be saints alongside them! You can do the same for your family and friends, even if you don’t end up getting married.
God, you can be assured, loves these holy people very much indeed, even if they did not end up taking religious vows.
Also, when a person in confession told him that it seemed his life was going down the drain, he said, “there ain’t no drain”.
Another thing, when you look into the mirror in the morning, say “I love you God, I know you love me”. 
Acknowledging imperfect faith, silently say at the consecration of the bread at Mass, “My Lord and my God” three times, then “I believe, Lord, help my unbelief”. At the consecration of the wine, “My Jesus, mercy” three times, then “I believe, Lord, help my unbelief”. Watch the “Sound Of Music” and Google Maria Von Trapp and find out when she became a citizen of the U.S.A. Also find out who Nina von Stauffenberg was and who her husband was. It is high time for there to be a first St. Rachael! Saints are sometimes said to be sinners who kept on getting back up after falling. St. Therese of Lisieux was notable for her Little Way of making the world a nicer place a bit at a time. You, Rachael, have inspired a lot of people to care and show it in responding to your heartfelt plight. Never quit caring and never think that God doesn’t care, even though you may not understand His ways yet. God Bless you and yours:thumbsup:
(St.) Colmcille (Jr.)