God has abandoned me

[The_Revelator]

Just because I am angry, dont mean that I don’t love God. and when I hear a heresey I risked my formation on it. someone has got to stand up for the right teachings especially in the seminary and that is another reason why I am sure I will never make it to priesthood as i am not a yesman nor will I sacrafice who I am or what I beleive in which is ALL of the teachings of the Holy Catholic Church.

Perhaps we need to work on that. What some might call the courage of their convictions, others might call arrogance. As Ecclesiastes tells us, there is a time be silent, and a time to speak. There is also a time to teach, and a time to learn. Sometimes we choose the wrong battles. Not because they are not worthwhile, but because it is not their time. To acquiesce to another man’s authority for awhile, is not a sign of weakness, it is a sign of prudence. You must learn to choose your battles wisely, for they too have a place and a time.

But I am angry with my situation and I am praying to rid myself of the anger and at the same time for a little relief and a little kernal of joy. Cmon God throw me a bone!!! Even the Dog gets a bone. I would think I am worth more than a Dog

I’m sorry that your life is so hard. And I’m sorry because all that I can give you is my sympathies. I know that any words of wisdom that I may try to impart will seem empty and hollow, but all things have their purpose. I trust that I know God, and I trust that God knows you. Therefore I must believe that He has a plan. In life we all have regrets about things not done, and dreams not fulfilled, but the measure of a man’s life is as much about what he has sacrificed, as it is about what he has achieved. It is not about what you have, it’s about what you have overcome. The rich man lays up treasure in this life, but the righteous man lays up his treasure in the next. God must think you capable of being a very righteous man.

I am holding God to Mk 11:23 and I am a person that don’t take no for an answer.

You hold to the promise of Mark 11:23, but tell me this, if you had been with Peter on the Sea of Galilee that day, do you think that you could have walked on water? If men had such faith, the sea would be full of mountains.

 

[Adam_Cook]

Brothers and Sisters,

I have sat and read many of your posts. The continuing pain that you all feel and struggle with touches my heart and know that I will pray for each of you. Yet now I feel that I must speak as well.

Within the past couple of years since I posted, I have gone through my own struggles, one of which was losing my mother, who was dearly close to me, my only parental figure, my symbol of pure love that only a mother can give. With such loss I have wrestled against the devil to maintain my faith, destroy my anger and find peace in God, as many of you have. Yet I have fallen into this entrapment of feeling “abandoned” and I know, as I tell you, it is a lie. God has never abandoned us and never will. I’m poor, I have about $1.29 in my bank account, barely have food to eat, in school and no job, with the only reason I am able to eat and have shelter is because of the kindness of people. This radical poverty would for some seem dreary and depressing. Some would feel sorry for me because I sleep on the floor, yet in my poverty and despair I find a source of strength and consolation. “The birds have their nests, the foxes their holes, but the son of man has no place to lay his head” are we to think that we are any better? Truly we are not! For if the poor, chaste and obedient master suffers then truly we must too. Yet Christ suffered one thing that we will never suffer, being forsaken by God. On the cross, alone, desolate, naked and humble, the savior suffered for our sins in the worst of ways, complete death, completely forsaken by God. “Eli, Eli sabachthani.” “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?” The most gruesome death was not the destruction of his body, but the forsaken status of his soul by God because of our sins. Christ suffered that so that we should not, thus at the end of Matthew (28) we read “I will be with you until the end of the age”. What eternal joy and goodness that we have hope in Christ, true faith to know that Christ The Lord will never forsaken us, will never leave us by his word. When we suffer so much pain and suffering, so much darkness and despair, we must know and understand, by our faith, that Christ suffers with us, when we feel alone, we look to the cross to see that we are not, that Christ too was alone, truly alone and forsaken. When we can’t eat, starving and hungry, we eat the bread of life to bring us closer to God and know that God is good. We remember the 40 days in which he didn’t eat food, and know that Christ starves with us. When we’re struggling to survive, we must look towards the transfigured Christ who in his glory now sits with the Father and prays for us. When we cry over grief, despair and pain, we know that truly Christ wept, and that Christ too lost a parent (St Joseph) and felt the greatest of pains both physically, emotionally and spiritually on the cross.

Yet how do we find relief was one question? How do we find the strength to carry on? By faith. God has not forsaken us, every pain and suffering we have is burdened also by Christ. We must follow our heart, with all that we are and if that doesn’t work then go into prayer and ask God “What do you want of me?” Trust me he’ll answer as long as you are seeking him. God opens and closes all doors and we must listen and follow those doors so that we may be good disciples of Christ and glorify the Father in Heaven. I implore all of you brothers and sisters of our dear Lord, through the intercession of my Holy Father Francis of Assisi, to grow out of yourselves. We are called to put on the new man in Christ, to she’d ourselves for God, this requires of us several things, one of which to love the other, to give ourselves in service to the other. For God knew that we were not made for this world or ourselves, but for the Kingdom of Heaven and leaning on each other. Volunteer, work with the poor, do corporeal acts of mercy and perform spiritual acts of mercy every day. If we continue to focus on ourselves and how pitiful our situation is then we will have no joy or peace, but if we look to the crucified Lord and to our brothers and sisters in Christ, the joy of The Lord shall be ours and we will find not only God, but ourselves as the same time.

Pax et Bonum.