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Jcnava15
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It has been a rough few months for me. My faith was really on the rocks. I was on the verge of admitting I was agnostic, and just giving up with all this “pray without ceasing” stuff.
But no! God would not leave me alone.
Just a few minutes ago I was laying on my couch just struggling in my mind looking at the picture of Jesus on my wall, and saying “Jesus if it’s your will, let me know. I want to rely on you, because I can’t rely on myself.”.
Then I just laid next to my puppy because I was sad, and a quiet beautiful voice said “Read Matthew 5…”, I said "Jesus if that’s you let me know, I dont want to be talking to myself.
And again “Read Matthew 5…6”.
So I read it. It was the beatitudes. Matthew 5:6 was about those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled. This spoke to me, because everyday for the past few months when I have been really struggling, I would cry out to God “My spirit needs food!I’m thirsty lord! I need my daily bread!”.
This was beautiful in itself, but again I doubted. But the voice again spoke “Read it again”.
So I went back to the website where I read it, and this time an Ad stuck out on the website that directly answered another prayer about a project I was struggling to finish.
God is great!
But no! God would not leave me alone.
Just a few minutes ago I was laying on my couch just struggling in my mind looking at the picture of Jesus on my wall, and saying “Jesus if it’s your will, let me know. I want to rely on you, because I can’t rely on myself.”.
Then I just laid next to my puppy because I was sad, and a quiet beautiful voice said “Read Matthew 5…”, I said "Jesus if that’s you let me know, I dont want to be talking to myself.
And again “Read Matthew 5…6”.
So I read it. It was the beatitudes. Matthew 5:6 was about those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled. This spoke to me, because everyday for the past few months when I have been really struggling, I would cry out to God “My spirit needs food!I’m thirsty lord! I need my daily bread!”.
This was beautiful in itself, but again I doubted. But the voice again spoke “Read it again”.
So I went back to the website where I read it, and this time an Ad stuck out on the website that directly answered another prayer about a project I was struggling to finish.
God is great!