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MarthaSo
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I’ve just just through the other threads on this and notice the answers are mixed. Some say St. Thomas Aquinas states God does not love each of us equally and I’m not qualified to go against a Doctor of the Church but it made me think about this one person I know. I dislike her strongly because she is a vicious manipulative person. And here I am, a nice person who thinks about God every moment (not bragging I feel unworthy of Him as a default) and tries to be nice to everyone and the thought occurred to me…
“Jesus loves her THE SAME?”
Forget her for a minute, my thoughts became dark as I thought, Jesus, whom I seek everyday and try to love more LOVES the woman who killed her child THE SAME. (sorry it was a dark thought)
A part of me thought I had better get ready to accept that, but then I’m back to St. Thomas Aquinas who says no that’s not true.
If God did love us all the same no matter what we do than we all have a shot at His Mercy if we repent. If He loved us less because we were mass murderers of children than we’d have no hope. (This doesn’t sit well with me but could this be true)
I will check what the CCC states. I am disappointed in myself for being annoyed that this may be true because even though I try to show God my faith by works, I do it ultimately to please Him” thinking if I please the Lord and seek first His Kingdom He’ll like me more than someone who’s evil and doesn’t seek Him at all. Why should it matter to me? I don’t know.
But then I think of my children (May God protect all of our children’s faith) and I realize that my selfish way of hoping He would like me more for my devotion to him at a high cost, would take away from His love of them if they decide not to follow the faith. And I love my children too much to feel comfortable wanting that anymore.
And then I’m back to thinking of that horrible manipulative woman who literally is evil and that God loves her just as much as St. Therese and our Blessed Mother!
I can’t seem to close this one out in my mind. Any thoughts appreciated. Thank you.
“Jesus loves her THE SAME?”
Forget her for a minute, my thoughts became dark as I thought, Jesus, whom I seek everyday and try to love more LOVES the woman who killed her child THE SAME. (sorry it was a dark thought)
A part of me thought I had better get ready to accept that, but then I’m back to St. Thomas Aquinas who says no that’s not true.
If God did love us all the same no matter what we do than we all have a shot at His Mercy if we repent. If He loved us less because we were mass murderers of children than we’d have no hope. (This doesn’t sit well with me but could this be true)
I will check what the CCC states. I am disappointed in myself for being annoyed that this may be true because even though I try to show God my faith by works, I do it ultimately to please Him” thinking if I please the Lord and seek first His Kingdom He’ll like me more than someone who’s evil and doesn’t seek Him at all. Why should it matter to me? I don’t know.
But then I think of my children (May God protect all of our children’s faith) and I realize that my selfish way of hoping He would like me more for my devotion to him at a high cost, would take away from His love of them if they decide not to follow the faith. And I love my children too much to feel comfortable wanting that anymore.
And then I’m back to thinking of that horrible manipulative woman who literally is evil and that God loves her just as much as St. Therese and our Blessed Mother!
I can’t seem to close this one out in my mind. Any thoughts appreciated. Thank you.