I felt called by God to tell a young engaged couple leaving on a trip to “Drive safe” I argued with God cause It embarassed me to say it. then His mom said, “Be careful, drive safe.” so I felt I was off the hook! But really should’ve fessed up that, “I feel led by God to tell you to be extra careful, and drive safely.” But I didn’t want to experience “the Look” where people stare at me like I’m crazy, so I choked it back. The couple missed a turn. They flipped a U turn, and were broadsided by a semi truck. His fiance lived, but was in a comma for many months. She woke up with amnesia. She never did remember him again. Eventually he stopped visiting, and trying to make it work.
I think the lesson here is that God wanted to save them from this tragedy, but I was an unwilling servant. I think many times God trys to answer our prayers, but people are unwilling to do their part, and so it appears that nothing happens. If is a great act of Grace when God communicates His desires to you!
God is calling you to forgive your parent. We are supposed to forgive. It’s healthy! In the Spiritual realm as a parent she owes you a debt for her sin. Ask God to help you forgive her this debt. This means you don’t want God to punish her for what she owes you, or did to you, or failed to do for you. You wish to let it go, and forgive this debt, even though she may not deserve it! It is your personal response to the Love Of God, when you want to forgive, and live in peace with all people. That is God’s grace active in your life. forgiving is healing for you! It is helpful for all those around you. Forgiving is a decision, not an emotion. Forgiving is an action, not a feeling. Of course it is much easier when both our feelings, and actions match up. In my experience, the act of choosing to forgive later brings the grace and blessing of feeling that I do emotionally, truely forgive!
I’m not sure if you are to contact your parent to voice this forgiveness. This is where a Spiritual Director, whom you can share all the details with, will be very helpful. Sometimes it is necessary to forgive, yet not have contact with a person who will continue to cause us harm. Other times it’s helpful to have limited contact for the purpose of sharing that forgiveness only. Other times, forgivness may open the door for a relationship that is elevated, healed, and at some levels restored. This is very rare because it requires all parties involved to follow God’s leading.
May God bless you on your journey. Be safe my friend.
