Going through something right now...not sure what

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Hi,
So to start off I am a married mom of a little girl, one years old.
This month I feel like something is happening to me mentally.it wa’s my 27th birthday and my grandma died. Not only that it was the anniversary of my grandpa’s death (3/13/13) and my little dogs death anniversary as well as of a year ago. In february my favorite uncle who I was very close to has been dead 5 years. Anyway I’m not sure if it was my grandma’s death, but something triggered a kind of depression that almost left me feeling out of place time wise. I suddenly had this overwhelming feeling like I wanted to contact an old boyfriend whom I had loved very much and I felt like I had let down. Weird, I know and I didn’t contact him. I found some old diaries from when I was 15, and reading about all the memories of my dead loved ones was almost too much to handle. I just feel so depressed and can’t explain it. It’s like I look back at my life then and my life now and everything is broken. My mom and dad were still happily married, and I went to visit my grandparents every summer in their house where i just loved to be. Not only that but I think turning 27 is bothering me too…I feel like time is slipping through my fingers and I can’t stop it and it’s taking r very thing I love with it. don’t know what’s wrong with me, I’m hoping someone might have some insights because I hate feeling like this.
 
Ella, it sounds like you may be depressed. Please call your doctor and make an appointment. Tell him or her what you just said here, and ask for a referral to a counselor. The way you described things is exactly how I have heard someone very dear to me describe when she is going through a depressive episode. Please seek medical help.
ellam25 said:
Hi,
So to start off I am a married mom of a little girl, one years old.
This month I feel like something is happening to me mentally.it wa’s my 27th birthday and my grandma died. Not only that it was the anniversary of my grandpa’s death (3/13/13) and my little dogs death anniversary as well as of a year ago. In february my favorite uncle who I was very close to has been dead 5 years. Anyway I’m not sure if it was my grandma’s death, but something triggered a kind of depression that almost left me feeling out of place time wise. I suddenly had this overwhelming feeling like I wanted to contact an old boyfriend whom I had loved very much and I felt like I had let down. Weird, I know and I didn’t contact him. I found some old diaries from when I was 15, and reading about all the memories of my dead loved ones was almost too much to handle. I just feel so depressed and can’t explain it. It’s like I look back at my life then and my life now and everything is broken. My mom and dad were still happily married, and I went to visit my grandparents every summer in their house where i just loved to be. Not only that but I think turning 27 is bothering me too…I feel like time is slipping through my fingers and I can’t stop it and it’s taking r very thing I love with it. don’t know what’s wrong with me, I’m hoping someone might have some insights because I hate feeling like this.
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ellam25 said:
Hi,
So to start off I am a married mom of a little girl, one years old.
This month I feel like something is happening to me mentally.it wa’s my 27th birthday and my grandma died. Not only that it was the anniversary of my grandpa’s death (3/13/13) and my little dogs death anniversary as well as of a year ago. In february my favorite uncle who I was very close to has been dead 5 years. Anyway I’m not sure if it was my grandma’s death, but something triggered a kind of depression that almost left me feeling out of place time wise. I suddenly had this overwhelming feeling like I wanted to contact an old boyfriend whom I had loved very much and I felt like I had let down. Weird, I know and I didn’t contact him. I found some old diaries from when I was 15, and reading about all the memories of my dead loved ones was almost too much to handle. I just feel so depressed and can’t explain it. It’s like I look back at my life then and my life now and everything is broken. My mom and dad were still happily married, and I went to visit my grandparents every summer in their house where i just loved to be. Not only that but I think turning 27 is bothering me too…I feel like time is slipping through my fingers and I can’t stop it and it’s taking r very thing I love with it. don’t know what’s wrong with me, I’m hoping someone might have some insights because I hate feeling like this.
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Dear Ella, I am sorry you are experiencing this and so deeply. Esp since you are a Mommy of a 1 yr old precious little girl. I can not say if this is clinical depression or
another thing, like a spiritual depression.
I think it is maybe good idea to see someone…HOWEVER…please try to see a Catholic therapist. someone who can help you discern things including how God is working here.

Prayers for you. Peace to you.
JMJ
 
I go through that melancholy time now and then. It’s because they were important people that you loved and now they are gone. A true loss even in our faith. They aren’t here. My grandmother told me while I was growing up to pray for people, the living and the dead who appear in your dreams or pop into your thoughts.
I suddenly had this overwhelming feeling like I wanted to contact an old boyfriend whom I had loved very much and I felt like I had let down. Weird, I know and I didn’t contact him.
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It’s a good thing you didn’t contact him. Unforeseen and horrible consequences can happen if one or both of you are married. (You are. So don’t.) If you find yourself both single, it might be okay. Whenever his memory pops up in the future, just pray for him. Place him God’s Perfect will. Be kind to yourself in that memory, you were a kid.
 
It sounds to me like calling your doctor for a referral to a psychologist would be a good idea. Sometimes talking things out really does help. You have a lot going on in your life right now and have had a lot of things to come to terms with over a relatively short amount of time. A little therapy never hurt anyone 😉
 
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